Life Update

Monday July 10, 2017.

My job currently have me off for the whole week, which sucks because if I'm not working I can't make any money. So I'm home with my son all week I'll be applying for jobs trying to find me a full time job. I've been dealing with a little financial problem. Bills are getting backed up. I've been dealing with depression and anxiety lately. It's just so much going on and I don't know if I can handle it all. I really wish I had a close friend or someone that I call and talk to. I have my fiancé but he's barely here sometimes and when he is here he pays me no attention. Some days are better then others. I recently just lost my dad last year in February, and I haven't been the same since. I've dropped out of college since then, I've quit three jobs, I've thought about suicide, I think I'm losing my mind. It's been a whole year since he passed and I'm still not myself again. I'm trying to rebuild myself and put all of the pieces back together but it's so hard. Anyone that has ever lost a parent at a young age knows exactly what I'm going throughout especially if you were really close to that parent. I just want the pain and the suffering to be over