Life Turned Her This Way..........
SO THIS YEAR HAS REALLY SUCKED FOR ME: JAN 14TH WILL FOREVER BE IN MY MIND AND HEART, THE DAY I LOST "MY MATTY" , I WILL ALWAYS REMEMBER THE GOOD TIMES AND BAD, LAUGHTER AND TEARS , AND HOW HE ALWAYS MADE ME SMILE AND I FELT SAFE AND LOVED IN HIS ARMS I DEDICATE A PART OF "OUR SONG" TO HIM
"WOULDN'T U AGREE , BABY U AND ME "HAD" A GROOVY KIND OF LOVE"........
MARCH 28 2011, MOVED BACK TO TENNESSEE AFTER REALIZING THAT I DIDN'T HAVE THE MONEY TO MOVE TO FLORIDA, AND MY SIS NEEDED EMOTIONAL SUPPORT FOR GOING THROUGH HER DIVORCE, SOME DAY AND TIMES I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO SAY CAUSE I HAVEN'T BEEN THERE AND I'M NOT GOING THROUGH IT......
BACK TO ME- AFTER 9 YEARS OF FRIENDSHIP AND TRYING DATING THINGS WERE GOING GREAT WITH A MAN NAMED SCOTT- THEN ALL OF THE SUDDEN , HE JUST CUT OFF ALL COMMUNICATION WITH ME- AND I DON'T KNOW WHY- SO NOW I'M A WHORE
YES I DID JUST CALL MYSELF THAT- I MEET GUYS AND GO HAVE SEX WITH THEM BECAUSE I WAS LEFT FEELING WORTHLESS AND UGLY- WHY CAN'T I BE THE GIRLFRIEND AND NOT THE FRIEND? I'VE CONVINCED MYSELF AND EVERYONE ELSE THAT I'M OK , THAT IT DOESN'T BOTHER ME THAT HE JUST DISSAPEARED AND I DON'T KNOW WHY- I'M NOT OK ! I WOULD RATHER GO OUT GET SEX AND CUDDLING AND HAVE SOMEONE TELL ME THAT THEY LOVE ME THAN TO BE LONELY AND ALONE AND NEVER HEAR IT- I WANT HAPPINESS AND LOVE BUT IT JUST NEVER HAPPENS FOR ME.......... AND THIS IS ME- THIS IS MY LIFE- MEN SCREWED ME OVER AND LIED AND HURTFUL WORDS AND WHAT U DO REALLY DO MAKE A DIFFERENCE- I'M BRANDI- THE WHORE WHO CAN BE USED FOR SEX- TOLD U LOVE HER AND THEN U DON'T CALL , DON'T CARE, SO I DON'T CARE ANYMORE I'LL EITHER BE PREGNANT DEAD OR HAVE A HORRIBLE DISEASE- WHATEVER- ITS JUST ME THE MOST UNLOVABLE PERSON IN THE WORLD - NOBODY WILL BE SAD OR MISS ME........
"WOULDN'T U AGREE , BABY U AND ME "HAD" A GROOVY KIND OF LOVE"........
MARCH 28 2011, MOVED BACK TO TENNESSEE AFTER REALIZING THAT I DIDN'T HAVE THE MONEY TO MOVE TO FLORIDA, AND MY SIS NEEDED EMOTIONAL SUPPORT FOR GOING THROUGH HER DIVORCE, SOME DAY AND TIMES I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO SAY CAUSE I HAVEN'T BEEN THERE AND I'M NOT GOING THROUGH IT......
BACK TO ME- AFTER 9 YEARS OF FRIENDSHIP AND TRYING DATING THINGS WERE GOING GREAT WITH A MAN NAMED SCOTT- THEN ALL OF THE SUDDEN , HE JUST CUT OFF ALL COMMUNICATION WITH ME- AND I DON'T KNOW WHY- SO NOW I'M A WHORE
YES I DID JUST CALL MYSELF THAT- I MEET GUYS AND GO HAVE SEX WITH THEM BECAUSE I WAS LEFT FEELING WORTHLESS AND UGLY- WHY CAN'T I BE THE GIRLFRIEND AND NOT THE FRIEND? I'VE CONVINCED MYSELF AND EVERYONE ELSE THAT I'M OK , THAT IT DOESN'T BOTHER ME THAT HE JUST DISSAPEARED AND I DON'T KNOW WHY- I'M NOT OK ! I WOULD RATHER GO OUT GET SEX AND CUDDLING AND HAVE SOMEONE TELL ME THAT THEY LOVE ME THAN TO BE LONELY AND ALONE AND NEVER HEAR IT- I WANT HAPPINESS AND LOVE BUT IT JUST NEVER HAPPENS FOR ME.......... AND THIS IS ME- THIS IS MY LIFE- MEN SCREWED ME OVER AND LIED AND HURTFUL WORDS AND WHAT U DO REALLY DO MAKE A DIFFERENCE- I'M BRANDI- THE WHORE WHO CAN BE USED FOR SEX- TOLD U LOVE HER AND THEN U DON'T CALL , DON'T CARE, SO I DON'T CARE ANYMORE I'LL EITHER BE PREGNANT DEAD OR HAVE A HORRIBLE DISEASE- WHATEVER- ITS JUST ME THE MOST UNLOVABLE PERSON IN THE WORLD - NOBODY WILL BE SAD OR MISS ME........
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I hate to see you so down and alone :( *hugs*
I use to be that girl, I probably still would be if I wasnt involved. But I threw myself at guys who showed interest in me, and then when they got what they wanted , i was a nobody, and I acted like I didnt care, and I cried inside and hated myself. I feel useless, I feel like im a horrible girl to date, that im worthless and just a problem ................... Im here for you Brandi. I understand you .
That\'s not true, Brandi. Your friends will miss you. You\'re not a whore in my eyes, unless you go out to fuck as many guys as humanly possible just to use them and leave them hanging. And for those who can\'t seem to leave you alone, just stringing them along for the ride while you know that you have no feelings or consideration for them whatsoever doesn\'t help, either. So if you behave like a whore, then you are a whore. If someone just calls you a whore, that doesn\'t mean that you really are a whore. Good luck to you in rationalizing all this, and I hope that you are able to think better of yourself soon. If you need someone to talk with or vent to, I\'m not hard to find. Message me anytime.