LIFE SUCKS w/ no one to answer a despreate cry of help
right now im currently broke so much i cant relly do anything but drink rootbeer eat go to the bathroom play on computer go to pointless work *pays to little any ways to pay bills all at once* watch tv feel sore and hurting and feeel tottaly angry becase im stuck w/ ld its a big rut i cant escape from =( plus i hate how easly i get sore i mean just a phew hours ago b-4 i got on the computer my one foot started hurting for no apperent resion and as of latly new problems have fell on me i now fidget i dont know why i tryed giving up sugar but its impossable
i dont feel stresssed probly might be the bording ishhue
but any how i also stutter when i speak i ddont know the case of the stuttering or if we can efford help for it =(
i now hate sound becase my earws just go beserk verry ealily it seem i developed a sound sencitvity to all sound in general
wich all throw in enoying crickets and my fidgeting = a night of me unable to fall asleep unless i pass out
right now if my live was infanate id describe it as a movie seen from head of steate where cris rock as mays gillium say what know *buss runs over bike* Criss rock: NOT MY BIKE NOO NOT MY BIKE!!!! and repeat becase every time thing seem to get better PLOP i get stuff i dont care or neeed i dont seem to understand why its like that i mean id rather have a all the bad things happen at once like getting hit w/ a car and nothing much else happen after that but its like a soap opra just when things get nice BAM que the dramma i mean gosh forbid for a guy like me to have a breack from constan chaos and dramma and pending doom i know i keep saying this but theresa gotta be a way where i dont feel like the worlds on my sholders and i have to be better then super man when im suck chained to my cryptinate and nothing and no ones there to help me atleast shield me longenough so then i can save the day cuz right now im pretty frustrate ,mad,upset and feel like im getting cheated out of my life i mean relly you ate a look at ppl claiming to help ppl the one thing i notice alot is the fisrt words are hand over the money like im a stachue made of money and that ant right is it wrong for soem one like me to want to be able to trhive ans survive on there own NO it hsouldnt be charged for when ppl need somthing to start away around there i even feel right now that its just stupid how i scream basily for help yet w/ in my house theres no one htere to answer the call i dont even know if ill move out of my parents house when i dont know how and if ill get help for my weaknesses that prevent me to do so i wish i can get help or some one was able to help me get the help i need yet i feel thats only daydream talk wich is pointless wich makes more feel more mad and frustrated cuz then i feel usless as a provider to my family
i dont feel stresssed probly might be the bording ishhue
but any how i also stutter when i speak i ddont know the case of the stuttering or if we can efford help for it =(
i now hate sound becase my earws just go beserk verry ealily it seem i developed a sound sencitvity to all sound in general
wich all throw in enoying crickets and my fidgeting = a night of me unable to fall asleep unless i pass out
right now if my live was infanate id describe it as a movie seen from head of steate where cris rock as mays gillium say what know *buss runs over bike* Criss rock: NOT MY BIKE NOO NOT MY BIKE!!!! and repeat becase every time thing seem to get better PLOP i get stuff i dont care or neeed i dont seem to understand why its like that i mean id rather have a all the bad things happen at once like getting hit w/ a car and nothing much else happen after that but its like a soap opra just when things get nice BAM que the dramma i mean gosh forbid for a guy like me to have a breack from constan chaos and dramma and pending doom i know i keep saying this but theresa gotta be a way where i dont feel like the worlds on my sholders and i have to be better then super man when im suck chained to my cryptinate and nothing and no ones there to help me atleast shield me longenough so then i can save the day cuz right now im pretty frustrate ,mad,upset and feel like im getting cheated out of my life i mean relly you ate a look at ppl claiming to help ppl the one thing i notice alot is the fisrt words are hand over the money like im a stachue made of money and that ant right is it wrong for soem one like me to want to be able to trhive ans survive on there own NO it hsouldnt be charged for when ppl need somthing to start away around there i even feel right now that its just stupid how i scream basily for help yet w/ in my house theres no one htere to answer the call i dont even know if ill move out of my parents house when i dont know how and if ill get help for my weaknesses that prevent me to do so i wish i can get help or some one was able to help me get the help i need yet i feel thats only daydream talk wich is pointless wich makes more feel more mad and frustrated cuz then i feel usless as a provider to my family
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