Life Sucks!

I am so sick and tired of trying to improve my life. Every time I put myself out there and try to work through my pain and other symptoms I get kicked in the teeth. A former friend and I started a Lingerie/Spa/Adult Accessory Home Party business together and I got screwed over emotionally & financially. Not only did she borrow money from me and not pay it back. She took money I had paid for orders I made in her other business and I never got the products. Then when we had our first Lingerie party with her mom and family she spend that money. I ended up paying for all the orders to go through including her mothers which she said she would pay for as a Mother's Day and Birthday gift. Then when her family started to suspect something was going on she had the gall to blame it on me. Now, I am struggling to hold on to my dignity and get the company up and running so I can help this family with the money situation. My husband works twelve hour days just to keep us afloat. Anyway, today I had an open house that I have been working on all week and not one single person showed up. I sat in that big empty hall all by myself for four hours. I had spent a ton of time going over what door prizes to offer, how many,what buyer specials would be good. Now, it is all wasted. I just need to book some parties and I know I have a great chance of making this work but even my family and friends can't bother to show up. God why are you doing this to me. I'm pretty sure I have allready learned patience. Can't we move on to another leason for a while? Anyone have any good cheap ideas? The room today all ready put a dent in my budget. Life Sucks!!