Life Sucks
What are we to do?Life is not the same anymore,I'm not the same person I was 15 months ago.Hell I don't even think I know myself anymore I look in the mirror all I see is sadness in my eyes and a heart that is barely beating.Life is a struggle what are we to do?Can't take much more I have isolated myself to my house it's my prison filled full of pictures of Justin for I won't forget his face his gentle heart and smile he was real.I love him so much.How did I get here?Why am I here?Please God if you are real please please help me.jfm24,Vicki
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Vicki I feel that you need to try and start partcipating in life. It is a choice. Maybe you could put away some of Justin\'s pictures, maybe you could try to do something that you used to enjoy,maybe you could talk to someone. Things ARE NOT the same and it sucks! You must go out...you must take care of yourself...search deep for the strength that has kept you going...it can help you turn your life around. You are loved,you are needed...you can choose life...choose life! Love to you...Karen
Biowoman is right Vicki! You need to really TRY and get out and participate in life. Find some kind of hobby that brings you joy-you used to plant flowers. WHy not start alittle garden(in memory of Justin) and you can enjoy the fresh air and sunshine and every day you will have something to nourish and watch it grow and bloom. Justin would want his Mom to get on with her life. It sounds like you two had a very special mother-son relationship and now you can honor his memory by getting on with your life and moving forward. I know Justin wants you to be happy again and find joy in life with your family and friends. I know also that you have alittle reminder of Justin(your grandson) and when you feel lonely for Justin, you can always reach out to your grandson-he is a part of your son(his living legacy) and I am sure he would love a visit or phone call or letter from his Grandmother Love you Vicki! Hang in there and stay strong! May you soon find some happiness and joy in your life.:0) God bless!