Life stinks.

Does life in general just plain suck or is it me? It feels like for every step forward I get jerked back three. I finally feel like maybe I could work part-time, at least till Christmas, and d. wrecks our only vehicle. Put the truck off over a bank, and of course it is not totally totaled, just semi-totalled. It runs but is not road worthy. Passenger window gone, no lights on the front at all, most tail lights gone and bits sticking out all down the side. Poor little pickup truck. Will cost more to repair than I paid for the baby. STRANDED! I hate it. Wiped out the rest of the months budget to rescue it from the tow lot, but at least it isn't building charges for storage. Now my stomach is acting up. 3 bathroom runs in less than an hour. I really needed this stress on top of d. sliding into one of his useless spells. The man is useless any time I need him. He just makes life so much harder for me. He is draining me emotionally and I do not know how to make him go away. He won't leave and I don't know how much more I can take. I get no support mentally from him, in fact I get nothing from him. I push to get him started on things that need to be done and he quits halfway through even simple things. Like my computer line. The dog chewed it in half, he fixed it once, but she did it again. We figured out how to cover it so she can't get to it, but he won't fix it again for now. He says it is too tedious and he doesn't feel like it. How the hell does he think I feel haven't to run a cable every morning from the living room to the kitchen so I can use my computer? Then I have to take it up, and put it back every time I want to get online. If I leave it out, the cats play with it, the dog wants to play with it, and I trip over it. But 15 minutes of "tedious" is too much for him to deal with??? The tv is much to important, especially since everything is recorded on tivo and he watches what he wants, when he wants. I am getting fed up with everything!!!!