Life Lately

Hey everyone. Long time no updates, Im sorry for that. I have been very busy running around like a headless chicken. I made a goal to lose 50 pounds in 2 months, and i fear Ive only gained weight since then. Its depressing, and even frustrating, but I will continue to work out, and eat less as I have from the start, I WILL WIN DAMMIT. I have tried to keep to a workout schedule. Dont know if Ive succeeded though. Monday Wednesday, and Friday I go up to the gym, and spend an average of an hour there. A half hour of cardio, and a half hour of weight lifting. Its greatly improved my arms, and circulation, but my stomach still pudges. Im going to pull out my dusty old ab lounge again and spend some time on that thing, see if I can get a flat tummy. Heck ya!! Anyway....  On a different battlefront in my life my relationship with Tyrone has gotten stronger. It took me writing a Dear John letter, which, for those of you who dont know what it is, it's a breakup letter. I wrote down 3 and a half pages of why I wasnt happy with him anymore, and let him read it. Ever since that night, he has been.. awesome. Hes paid more attention to ME instead of his toys, hes cuddled, hes joked and laughed with me. He's undulged my little quirks, and gone walking the lake at night. Hes just been so great with me. I appreciate it. i know its hard for him to put that much energy into me because he works outside all day long 5 days a week, and I know its rough for him. But it makes me feel special.   In other news. I should be going to college in the fall, and getting that part of my life set up, and ready for action. I have to go take the CPT test, and go from there as far as finances go, and all that. In other words, Im desperate for money. Ive even applied to burger king, mcdonalds, wendys.... just so I could have some cash, but nothing. NO ONE has answered. Ive bugged people, and begged for jobs, and yet here I am still unemployed and broke as hell. -sigh-   Ive also started keeping better contact with people. Like Tony for instance. We dated in high school for a bit, but we remained friends. I have started trying to talk to him alot more, and see whats new in his life. Plus I asked him if he'd like to have lunch with me so that we could talk face to face moreso than over the computer screen so far away. Bah. He agreed which is great, but we still have yet to pick a day LMDAO. rawr.                                                                                                                                                                Anyyway, meesa thinks Its time to update the goal, and go rawr. Thanks to all of you who read all of this.