Life isn't what its crack out to be.
I hate my intial choice to be in this relationship.
and I hate that I didn't have a choice when I was forced to come back or lose my son and be homeless because my parent's only care about money, and the 1200 I gave them for the 2 months I lived there, just wasn't enough for them until I found work. I gave them all the money I had to the point, I could only afford to feed my son and not me. That's parents for ya, not giving a damn about their children, just wanting their money until it drys up.
I swear it is Talon's life goal to destory me and Drive me insane. And Then when I finally have enough of the belittling, he has to tell me I am mental insane, etc.
Fuck this life. I can't wait till I get an out. Even he does something like hitting me again, or I just off myself- or if I am truly lucky, I have a heart attack or other medically thing that ends in my out.
and I hate that I didn't have a choice when I was forced to come back or lose my son and be homeless because my parent's only care about money, and the 1200 I gave them for the 2 months I lived there, just wasn't enough for them until I found work. I gave them all the money I had to the point, I could only afford to feed my son and not me. That's parents for ya, not giving a damn about their children, just wanting their money until it drys up.
I swear it is Talon's life goal to destory me and Drive me insane. And Then when I finally have enough of the belittling, he has to tell me I am mental insane, etc.
Fuck this life. I can't wait till I get an out. Even he does something like hitting me again, or I just off myself- or if I am truly lucky, I have a heart attack or other medically thing that ends in my out.
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I am sorry that your parents don\'t treat your fairly! I can say that my mom would never put money over my care and health...my stepdad might out of ignorance lol. Many people in this money driven world still manage to see past the dollars and see the things that really matter in life. I am saddened that you seek an \'out\' in this life, but I do understand the pain. I will say that I have been down dirty paths in my life before, felt like it was too late for anything good, when I was only 21, but know I see and feel good things in this life. Often things are still hard, but I do have good moments. I have not found a good medication going on 10 years, but life can be good at times. Your life can get better as well. You can\'t give up, you have to keep fighting, and look for the tiny pleasures in your life, like when your young chlid gives you a big hug. I really hope things get better for you. I get the sense that you have a lot to offer based on your profile! Please take care.