Life is Looking Brighter!

Learning to make the best decisions for me is not something I am used to doing.  It was always about the kids or John or our family.  All the kids are grown now and I have been told I never cut the apron strings.  But little by little they are starting to fray.  My kids are starting to act like grown-ups at 31, 25 and 22 I guess it is about time.  Just joking they will always be my little ones and I will spoil them rotten till the day I die.  Last night I had a dream not really sure, I have been dreaming of Mom, Dad and John for the last couple of weeks and they are having a blast together and let me know it all the time.  Well at midnight I heard something woke up and saw a male figure standing at the side of my bed, I was scared to death.  Hid under the covers and my heart was beating 90 miles a minute.  I finally fell asleep and woke up this morning realizing that there has to be more to life than just this.  My reading glasses were no where in site they were missing looked everywhere couldn't find them.  So no computer for me this morning (guess someone was trying to tell me something).  Went to work and talked to my attorney about my dream and she said I think someone is trying to get their point across.  I told her about a decision I have made and she was thrilled.  She came back to work after lunch walked in my office, and said "Good Afternoon Sunshine" referring to me, because I had made her day.   She is the sweetest person you could ever imagine.  She has been a blessing for me these last few months.  She is only 34 and could almost be my daughter I guess.  Her and her husband were both divorced before and are both fantastic people and together they are perfect for each other.  It is so good to see that there are some people who do have the same beliefs and have taken different paths but in the end we are all looking for the same outcome "Happiness" and they have truly found it.  A blended family his children and their children but love each other unconditional. It made me think of the quotes my daughter likes.  "If you get a second chance, grab it with both hands and don't let go.  If it changes your life, let it.  Nobody said life would be easy.  They just promised it would be worth it."  There is nothing in my life that I would change other than holding my stillborn son Joshua.  Life is what you make it and mine will be "FANTASTIC", that is a promise I have made to myself.  P. S. When I got home from work there on the side of my bed were my Reading Glasses I guess I can now get on my computer.  Hugs, Dra'