life is a struggle

its been a long time since i have been on line here and reading posts, making a new journal, i have been having panic attacks on and off. but when i am feeling ok i am busy with county land for new home to be brought in, taking down old home of my parents that they passed away in 2013 and left me the 7 acres of land with a home that is unrepairable, so taking it down and salvage what i can. helping my brother with his home remoldling, getting my house in city work repair done when weather is good. looking to sell my home to one of my 3 children if not price goes up. tring to keep busy is tough when weather is winter time and then spring comes around and all it does is rain, cant do nothing in the rain. i am medicaly retired from a heart attack at age 45 so my life has been up and down. i also deal with panic attacks, acid relex, legs get tired from walking a long distance so walking for me is tough, see a dr for my leg issue, then my neck attery is another, but i take one day at a time and hope i can make it though the day with out no trouble. seeing drs allot and now and then hospital trips for i cant take it no more. but knowing now with all the test i have had my heart is ok, panic attack well i just have to take one day at a time and when i have them i breath in though nose and hold then blow out slowly, rest and breath, relax and think of a happy place.  i hope every one here is well. take one day at a time and enjoy life as much as you can for life is too short not too. have a great day