Life goes on!

                              Love is so rough, have to be strong, have to get tough, its a challenge, things have gone so wrong, need to make up my mind that life goes on. Only can take this challenge day by day, can't turn around, I will sway, not wanting to go backwards, only forward, but how can one do this when the other is not only in heart, but in soul, and whole being. Why has this card been handed to me, I did not ask for this move, I'm so darn alone in thoughts, thinking this through is not easy at all, but I must not fall, I must stay firm to what ever final decisions I make. Its just not fair that I wasted 15 years of my life, being his so called wife. He is so darn muleheaded, and nothing got embeded into his head, speaking to him these last few months, he seems as if he was dead, dead to the correct thing to do to make it home to me, now my heart and soul has drifted out the sea. I feel so lost, and the stakes are high, such a cost, for him to anger me so, disrespect me so, lie to me so, how do you go on, how do you just let go, I just don't know. Tears don't even come, he has made me so darn numb. For my peace of mind, I must try to forget him, sleepless nights, its just a fight, with my mind and heart. Why did he do this to me, why would he put himself in a position not to be free with me???????