Life changes

Well been trying to keep a positive attitude throughout this whole process of all the changes that are going on in my life.  I am going to church trying to set a good example for my son.  I actually am getting along with my mom and dad but it is hard going from coming and going as I please to living on side of a controlling parent ( my mom)  I wonder if she realizes that I am almost 46 years old and I do not like being told constantly what to do and when I have to be home.  I do not like living on side of them and now they have ruined my son against me because he does not want to even come visit me or stay with me at all.  It really hurts my feelings because I left a controlling, abusive situation and started my life over to help us in the long run.  I wish I could move out on my own and that I could win my sons love back.  I am not sure what to do about that one.  Please pray for me that I can be the kind of mom I need to be and that my son wants me around.  God bless you all