life at moment

Hi guys been i while since i wrote in here just thought i wud let peeps know how things are. Well at moment ia have been signed off work with a relaspe in my depression i took a overdose on 20th dec and ended up on drip for 2 days stupid i know but things got so bad i did not wnat to be ere anymore i have self hamred all over my arms and regret doing that as i now have to hide the cuts for when i finally get back to work i feel so bad for my husband as he is so helpless he does not know what to do for the best just as things are getting better i fuck it up and do womsething stupid i feel aso alone and thought i cud let off steam to people who understand