Life ain't always butterflies and rainbows..

I'm feeling like the whole world is starting to close up on me. People seem more and more confusing, distant and unattached to my existence. It feels like my worth is diminishing smaller and smaller everyday until I will have no need to continue on surviving in this life time. I keep going on and on, yet my feelings don't change an inch. Its just getting harder and harder and I just can't stand this. I thought I was over this, and so did everybody else who actually believed there was anything wrong in the first place. I'm over this lack of control I have of myself and my life, I can't even put my mind to things that I really want to do. I'm sick of this, and I'm sick of myself. I hate myself, and my body. I hate my lack of abilities in everything I do and the way I do anything in life. How long does this have to go on. This has gone on for far too long :(