Life

I wish I didn't have to fight with myself every day pouring everything into myself to win a losing battle. Struggling from mental and physical health issues are so draining. Even emotionally.. especially emotionally. It puts a struggle on everyone and everything in your life. After overdosing, drug abuse, and finding out that you have 3 mental disorders on top of everything physical you have already been going through, your world pretty much turns upside down. All anyone says when you overdose is, "How selfish could you be?" As if you trying rid yourself of the world had to do with anyone else. It's not about anyone else. At least mine wasn't. Mine was I guess a little impulsive.. (they say that is part of the borderline personality disorder) but apparently a lot of what I do does fall on that list. Wanting to get better is a lot easier said than done. It's a constant battle.. not only with yourself but with the world too. Sometimes you just get too tired.