"Libre lula" my dragonfly
I am writing for the first time. A dear friend of mine told me of your support site and thought I would give it a try. Today has been a sad day for me. Tomorrow will be one month since my daughter's death. Rachel was 18 when she suffered a brainstem cerebral embolism on Sunday, January 10th - she was pronounced brain dead on Monday, January 11th; only after we insisted on keeping her on life support for the mandated 12 hours before donor harvesting. I have never felt so out of control - so helpless. Rachel was heading back to the University on that Monday. She was a Biology Major and had so many goals and dreams that she yet got to experience here on earth. I cry tonight because she did not get to experience this life - I cry tonight because of the emptiness I feel. But I also try to rejoice in the fact that I was priviliged to have her as part of my life (no matter how short). I try to find peace (don't know when that will come) - I pray that we all find peace someday.