"Libre lula" my dragonfly

I am writing for the first time.  A dear friend of mine told me of your support site and thought I would give it a try.  Today has been a sad day for me.  Tomorrow will be one month since my daughter's death.  Rachel was 18 when she suffered a brainstem cerebral embolism on Sunday, January 10th - she was pronounced brain dead on Monday, January 11th; only after we insisted on keeping her on life support for the mandated 12 hours before donor harvesting.  I have never felt so out of control - so helpless.  Rachel was heading back to the University on that Monday.  She was a Biology Major and had so many goals and dreams that she yet got to experience here on earth.  I cry tonight because she did not get to experience this life - I cry tonight because of the emptiness I feel.  But I also try to rejoice in the fact that I was priviliged to have her as part of my life (no matter how short).  I try to find peace (don't know when that will come) - I pray that we all find peace someday.