Limbo

well another day.... heard a song play on the radio yesterday coming into work, boy it hit me  I forget the name of the singer but the name is courage.. basically doesnt matter how much you get knocked down its when you keep getting up thats courage.. that says it in a nutshell I dont think any of us thought we would have the courage and strength to keep goiing on, sometimes  Im not sure how I keep going I just do..  oh well what else can we do ? not much I think Ive tried everything and have come to the realization Ashley is never coming back, hurts hurts really bad , guess thats why I dont go to the cemetary everyday anymore somehow I keep things hidden in the back of my head but sometimes they creep out.. especially this time of yr , I go from angel date to holidays, which makes it incredibly hard to get thru the holidays, really dont enjoy them much  ,but like I keep telling myself, have to go on for the other girls, for their sake, but there really isnt much joy in them...I still wish time can be turned back BUT we all know how that goes...wishes , miracles, faith , dont have much in any of them........