letting everything out!

The last few years has been like a black hole sucking me in, into nothing but darkness and pain.
its like theres no end too my suffering, like im a burden too the world.
mum, i dont want you too think this was something that you did, although you could have paid more attention too me and loved me like you love my brother.. you could have took the time too notice me. i just cant control my emotions, ive always been weak so taking the easy way out is my style.
aaron, your suposed to be my brother but i know youve never loved me, so spit on my grave... that would make you happy.
im sure your all wondering why im doing this so i'll tell you.
my life has been fucked for a while now.
i hope you get this message and understand it, i never wanted anyone too get hurt by this only MYSELF.
i hate this world and what its caused me, one day we'll meet again i feel now is time too go. please dont be upset im not worth crying over!
im not worth anything.
im just a speck of dust on this earth.
the torment, the pain, the grief, the worry, the strain the never ending pain of life will be over.
thats why i dont want you too be sad.
i'll miss you all so much, i wish i could take you all with me.
i love you all so much, please dont cry, just think about the good times that we had.