letter to my school councelor/rejected

i wrote this letter to my school counselor asking for some guidance.  i gave her a picture of my childhood.  she replied that my story was sad but inspiring.  she told me that everytime she met me she thought i was very kind.  she also used a term: rejected in her reply.  "rejected" it opened my eyes when i read that word.  it made sense.  in therapy with molestation you always hear "abandoned" and "ashamed."  when i first met my therapist i told him no need to worry i don't feel ashamed of my uncle molesting me.  at 6 years old there is no way you can tell me that it could have been my fault - moving forward.  the "abondonment" i guess.  i didn't feel abandoned.  i felt something - lost.  i didn't know exactly what i was feeling.  i did not have the word and neither did my therapist.  so when i lost friends i took in personal.  i took it bad.  they had abandoned me.  for me abandoned means all alone.  i am not alone.  i have a good family who would do just about anything for me.  i was being rejected.  that made sense.  actually i am okay with rejection.  everybody is not going to like me and i am not going to like everybody.  abandoned seem so final.  hearing my therapist used that word made me sad.  it made me feel like no hope.  i did not know how i was going to dig myself out of a hole if i was alone.  i can dig out of rejection.  i self-talk to myself.  i say all kinds of positive things to myself.  it works.  i tell myself to calm down, it's going to be okay, i am sorry, i will protect you, and please let me get through this.  itg has really been making a difference.