Letter to my aunt.
Auntie,
I know that when I lived with you, i wasn't the best niece and i wasn't very nice to you, and im sorry for that. It bothers me all the time. I didn't mean to treat you the way I did, i was just going through a lot mentally and i didn't know how to handle everything especially going to Commerce and being picked on all the time. I didn't know what to to. I tried to just focus on my school work, i really did, and i really did want to graduate and i regret dropping out of school every single day of my life now. Some of the things I did while i was living with you were not right, when i did those things, i wasn't thinking right. I should have listen to you when you told me not to do something. But i was young and naive and dumb. The reason why i am writing this to you is to say im sorry for everything, how i acted and the way i treated you wasn't fair. You did so much for me when i was living with you and i just wanted to say that i appreciated everything i really did. You got me out of a bad situation and tried to make things better for me, but i just blew it. I blew it on stupid stuff. Things that don't even matter now. And i wish i knew that then that they didn't matter. I blew having a great life on stupid stuff but not only that, i ruined the relationship we had, and im sorry for that. It makes me feel guilty all the time. Because when i was a kid we were close and when i moved in with you at the beginning we were still close and then i had to go and ruin everything. I screwed up, and im sorry for that. You're a really great aunt for putting up with me for how long you did. I just wanted to tell you it wasnt you, it was me. And im sorry. I appreciated everything you did for me and thank you. I just wish i could take back everything i ever did to you and have a good relationship with you again. I really miss you. I wish that you would just talk to me again. I feel like you're mad at me still for what i did, i dont want things to be that way. I really don't. I want to have some kind of relationship with you even if it's not like the one i had before i lived with you. But it'd make me feel better to at least have you in my life again. So please if you could respond to this email if anything just to let me know you got it? I know you're probably busy and tired from working and what not, but i really do miss you and i do worry about you. I worry that something will happen to you and ill never get the chance to talk to you again and that scares me so much. So please, please try to respond to this.
I know that when I lived with you, i wasn't the best niece and i wasn't very nice to you, and im sorry for that. It bothers me all the time. I didn't mean to treat you the way I did, i was just going through a lot mentally and i didn't know how to handle everything especially going to Commerce and being picked on all the time. I didn't know what to to. I tried to just focus on my school work, i really did, and i really did want to graduate and i regret dropping out of school every single day of my life now. Some of the things I did while i was living with you were not right, when i did those things, i wasn't thinking right. I should have listen to you when you told me not to do something. But i was young and naive and dumb. The reason why i am writing this to you is to say im sorry for everything, how i acted and the way i treated you wasn't fair. You did so much for me when i was living with you and i just wanted to say that i appreciated everything i really did. You got me out of a bad situation and tried to make things better for me, but i just blew it. I blew it on stupid stuff. Things that don't even matter now. And i wish i knew that then that they didn't matter. I blew having a great life on stupid stuff but not only that, i ruined the relationship we had, and im sorry for that. It makes me feel guilty all the time. Because when i was a kid we were close and when i moved in with you at the beginning we were still close and then i had to go and ruin everything. I screwed up, and im sorry for that. You're a really great aunt for putting up with me for how long you did. I just wanted to tell you it wasnt you, it was me. And im sorry. I appreciated everything you did for me and thank you. I just wish i could take back everything i ever did to you and have a good relationship with you again. I really miss you. I wish that you would just talk to me again. I feel like you're mad at me still for what i did, i dont want things to be that way. I really don't. I want to have some kind of relationship with you even if it's not like the one i had before i lived with you. But it'd make me feel better to at least have you in my life again. So please if you could respond to this email if anything just to let me know you got it? I know you're probably busy and tired from working and what not, but i really do miss you and i do worry about you. I worry that something will happen to you and ill never get the chance to talk to you again and that scares me so much. So please, please try to respond to this.
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I saw your letter to your aunt. I dont know what happened. But my heart goes out to you. I can feel your pain and that your sorry for whatever happened. I\'ve done a lot of things that I\'m not proud of when I was young and naive too, but what I\'ve gone through growing up has changed me. I\'ve learned from my mistakes. Sounds like you have too. Learning hurts! I wish you the best. It\'s a great heartfelt letter. Whether she responds or not, I think you put everything into this and I hope that brings you peace. ;)
It\'s a great letter and it\'s honest and you take responsibility for your actions. It takes courage to say sorry and to admit fault and can be healing for self and for the other person to hear. I too have done things in my past I am not proud of. Sometimes we do things and are oblivious to how our behavior effects other people and how it effects ourselves and how we suffer the consequences later on. I hope that you and your aunt can one day reconcile and be able to build on your relationship again. About the school The good thing is that you are still young and can still make a great future for yourself by going back to getting an education. Try not to be so hard on yourself and forgive yourself. We all have done things and made wrong choices. The good thing is we can change, learn from our mistakes and make amends wherever we can and make better choices.