\"Letter\" part 2
SO IT STARTED OUT AS THIS LETTER ABOUT HOW MUCH I LOVED YOU AND HOW I ENVIED KAREN FOR BEING THE ONE TO GET THAT LOVE... BUT I NOW AM THINKING IT SHOULD'VE WENT ALITTLE SOMETHING LIKE THIS- I HATE U FOR U HAVE DONE TO ME ! I LOST EVERYTHING AND ITS ALL UR FAULT ! I AM MAD AT MYSELF FOR LETTING U DO THIS TO ME- I AM MAD FOR LETTING U BECOME MY LIFE- INSTEAD OF A BIG PART OF IT, I AM MAD CAUSE U BRAIN WASHED ME, U MADE ME DESERT MY FRIENDS - THE ONES WHO STUCK BY ME THROUGH IT ALL, I HURT THEM AND I HURT KEITH, A MAN WHO REALLY LOVES AND CARES FOR ME, YOU STRAINED MY RELATIONSHIP WITH MY SISTER AND NOW MY FAMILY THINKS I'M SOME BIG FOOL WHO THEY DON'T TRUST, I LOST ALL MY MATERIAL POSSESSIONS IN THE PROCESS- AND WHY? CAUSE I WANTED TO BE WITH YOU- I THOUGHT IT WAS WORTH IT... I PUT U UP ON THIS PEDISTAL SO HIGH THAT I THOUGHT U WERE AMAZING, AND ALL U DID WAS TREAT ME LIKE A DOG, I WAS AT UR BECK AND CALL, U SAID JUMP AND I SAID - OH YES MASTER , HOW HIGH? FOR ALL THESE REASONS I AM MAD AT ME AND YOU... I DON'T ENVY KAREN ANYMORE I FEEL SORRY FOR HER- SHE IS THE ONE HAVING TO DEAL WITH YOU, HAVING TO LIVE WITH SOMEONE WHO DOESN'T KNOW THE MEANING OF LOVE , AND I THINK SHE DESERVES BETTER, BUT SHE IS TOO WEAK TO EVER FIGURE THAT OUT- SO THOUGH ITS NOT RIGHT- U WILL BOTH BE MISERABLE TOGETHER - CAUSE YOU'RE BOTH WEAK IDIOTIC PEOPLE WHO HAVE NO BACKBONE , NO MORALS, NO CONCERN FOR ANYONE BUT YOURSELVES, AND NO SHAME....... IF U EVEN THINK ABOUT WRITING ME OR CALLING ME- DON'T - CAUSE I WON'T ANSWER THIS TIME- I WON'T BE WAITING ON THE OTHER END OF THE PHONE, I DON'T SIT UP AT NIGHT AND WAIT FOR U TO BE DRIVING UP ANYMORE, I DON'T FOCUS MY LIFE ON YOU, I DON'T WISH U WERE BACK IN MY LIFE, MY HEART GAVE UP ON THAT LONG AGO AND NOW MY HEAD IS FOLLOWING, AS HARD AS IT IS TO LET YOU GO. I AM DOIN IT- SO I CAN BE HAPPY FOR ONCE- ME AND NOT YOU .... UR A SELFISH BASTARD WHO ONLY WANTS WHAT MAKES MATT HAPPY ! SO GOODLUCK WITH LIFE AND LOVE AND WHATEVER U DO.... BUT I FOR ONE- WANT NO PART IN IT !
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