lets just grow the fuck up!
my new friends are coming around.. well at least one that i know for sure is, about trying to understand my bi polar better and be able to know what to say to me to get me out of my depression or anger. because those are the two that tear me apart from people the most.my old friends are coming back to me and i have never been so happy about it. its so good to feel included with them again because they are the ones that know me fully. ive known them all since elementary school and it would suck to start into my senior year after summer and not have them to enjoy it with. all those things are amazing to me but there are some other things that have really been getting to me lately. like my stupid ex's girlfriend put a restraining order on me and i read why she did and all i could do was drop my mouth because its all a bunch of lies. there was an incident... its a long story, where i pushed her back in march but thats all because she got up in my face and called me a whore so i pushed her back you know to get her out of my face. and i went to walk away.. well my ex was there too and he started pushing me around and shit like harder than any 18 year old guy should do. im 17 im still a minor and they are pressing charges on me? when i should be doing that to them. his gf is 18 too and she cant even stick up for herself she has to have mommy, daddy and my ex defend her because shes too weak... anywaysso now i have court may 27 and im pretty nervous because i know im right and everything but it just feels like everyone thinks im this horrible person and i know they are going to bring stuff up i have threatened to that girl in the past. they are gonna throw that reverse psychology shit on me and try to make me say something so that joe and elizabitch (my ex and his ugly bitch) can win the case and not only have a restraining order on me, but press charges against me.im sorry but they wont win.. my mom is getting me an attorney and theres gonna be some shit going down big time. it pisses me off how they cant let any of the stuff that happened between us all go. i tried to say sorry to elizabitch but she stuck her nose in the air and told on me to her dad which is funny because i said i was sorry so idk how im a threat. her dad says shes afraid for her life... pathetic. it makes me sick because even though anyone can be capable of killing someone im not that kind of person. but they will never get the chance to see that because joe always talks shit about me to students and adults. its insane.. i feel like everyone is gaining up on me and i just want it to all end!!!I'm tired of the drama these people put me through and im sick of the childish games. its bullshit and im sooo over it!! but they keep bringing it up so when people tell me to ignore them its kind of hard when they are taking me to fucking court! you know what i mean?I just feel like i bitch more than i talk about good things.. piss!!!--melanie anne
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