lets help each other though this

I miss being happy and laughing all the time. Since this drug has came into my life , im no longer who I was. I could go weeks with out it . then it was days. Ive recently moved, its not as accessible  as it once was. I thought that was a good step in the recovery process .  now I find my self going longer without it, but when I do get it , I get too much.  Ive read some journals talking about the guilt and the stress. I feel the exact same. I cry, stress and am full of regret  . its not worth it . We deserve better than this. I would love to help people by giving them someone to talk to as well. My heart is with you all. we can help each other . xoxo one love