Let Go..

I know we are past tense it's been a lifetime since we were a couple, walking and holding hands, kisses and "I love you's" doing what lovers do, but that was then and now you don't talk to me no more you got a new man. It shouldn't be bothering me but girl it fucking driving me crazy and everybody says, "boy why don't you just leave it alone" but i don't think I can. I sit up all night thinkin about you knowing it's not right. I won't ever let it go I'm holding on to hope and it's foolish though something tells me that she just might walk through that door again. I know it won't happen because we don't talk anymore and like I said you got a new man, I just wish you knew that I don't think I can let you go. daily I have been waiting for the time to pass and let it fade in, but babe my patience is driving me crazy making me fall apart. What do you do when the truth isn't quite enough? I can't believe they lookin at you tellin you that we should never be together...I just don't understand, you gave me love and girl you know what I told ya that this relationship would never be over. well I can see how that backfired in my face. I choose certain things over you that you didn't appreciate I don't know how many more sorries I can give you but I still say them anyways. how can I show you that I am a changed man? because you meant that much to me I quit doing all those drugs like I promised you but you still ran away with my heart shattered on the ground. fuck I remember your touch and god I miss you so much why don't you believe me baby I've said sorry but still everybody hates me. well you choose what to do and now I guess getting used to you being gone has taken it's toll. All the hurt I endured for nothing, shit now I know that sorry doesn't make everything alright but I did believe that we could make it as long as you gave me a second try. I swear I am a changed man and you'd be proud of what I have become. You gave me love and I'll never forget that, I just wish it wasn't over and I could write on and on about you but still this emptyness will never become full. Just so hard to let go...