Let the past stay in the past....

Well, this week marks the "anniversary" of when I miscarried my first pregnancy.  I know it is EXTREMELY useless to dwell on these sort of things, but we all know it's impossible not to.
As soon as I realized that I am 6 weeks today, I went into a panic.  I don't know why I didn't realize it (I have purposely not been keeping track), since my ultrasound is tomorrow....so DUH on my part.
but anyway, now that I have realized it - I am a mess.  every cramp, tug, feeling "down there' of wetness - it is scaring me.   I don't want to feel so weak, like such a wimp.   
Between my queasiness, my nervous stomach and the general cramps I have felt since my transfer, my poor tummy is just a wreck....which of course, is a visious cycle, b'c all of the stomach issues make me more nervous.
AH, to be free of Infertility Fear.
 

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LMWT
LMWT

I hope your us tomorrow helps ease your anxiety. I can not wait for my us next week so that I know all is good in there!
Orriginal
Orriginal

What you are physically feeling sounds perfectly normal if that helps at all! I hope your appt tomorrow helps you feel better also! Can\'t wait for an update!
Andi60857
Andi60857

I agree with Orriginal, everything your experiencing sounds pretty normal for early pregnancy. Congrats on 6 weeks and best of luck tomorrow, update us on the ultrasound!
deleted_user
deleted_user

Good luck tomorrow! Nothing eases your mind (or tummy) like a good ultrasound. Nothing. Fingers crossed for you. Spoil yourself a little tonight :-)
Magnafortuna
Magnafortuna

You are in my thoughts. Each pregnancy is different, but it is so hard not to compare and be affected by our fears. I hope that you can find some peace and joy in this new pregnancy!
RoxyD
RoxyD

Good luck at u/s today.
bgs4444
bgs4444

thank you all so much
melissaw27
melissaw27

Hold on to the fact that this a new pregnancy. I am 22 weeks 3 days, past the gestations that I lost both boys, and the fear still creeps in. I just keep telling myself that everyday is a step closer to bringing home these babies. Can\'t wait to hear your update!!!
Mazzila4
Mazzila4

I don\'t think the loss of our babies ever get easier so I think what you are feeling is just normal....I\'m 17w5d and I still have anxiety/fear everyday about how out last pregnancy ended. I hope that your u/s goes well!!!