Let Down Once Again
Had lunch at home today, since I had to check on the laundry. Husband walks in; turns out he got out early because of the nature of the work today. He said I could take his car back to work, since it was parked closest to street.
So as I start to go back, the car's acceleration was kind of intermittant & I didn't feel safe, so I turned around & parked the car in front of the house. Before getting in the other car, I go inside to tell him what happened. The radio is on, but he's not around. I turn it off & call him a few times, including "Where are you?" (so if he's in the bathroom, he can just say so). Nothing.
Well, I can't wait around, so I just leave. When I get to work, I call him to tell him about the car, but he doesn't answer; the machine picks up, so I just leave a message with the information.
I am so mad! Yeah, there may be some reasonable explanation, but my gut is doubting it. I can't even count on him to respond to me when obviously something is wrong (after all, we did say goodbye to eachother, so if I'm back in 1 minute, there is a problem!). And not that I was up a creek without a paddle--I did have the other car. However, I really resent the fact that "some things" are more important...
Conclusion: I really can't count on him for anything. Why do I even bother with expectations?
So as I start to go back, the car's acceleration was kind of intermittant & I didn't feel safe, so I turned around & parked the car in front of the house. Before getting in the other car, I go inside to tell him what happened. The radio is on, but he's not around. I turn it off & call him a few times, including "Where are you?" (so if he's in the bathroom, he can just say so). Nothing.
Well, I can't wait around, so I just leave. When I get to work, I call him to tell him about the car, but he doesn't answer; the machine picks up, so I just leave a message with the information.
I am so mad! Yeah, there may be some reasonable explanation, but my gut is doubting it. I can't even count on him to respond to me when obviously something is wrong (after all, we did say goodbye to eachother, so if I'm back in 1 minute, there is a problem!). And not that I was up a creek without a paddle--I did have the other car. However, I really resent the fact that "some things" are more important...
Conclusion: I really can't count on him for anything. Why do I even bother with expectations?
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I AM SORRY ABOUT THIS ,IT IS SAD THAT HE CANNOT BE THERE FOR YOU,I HOPE THAT ALL IS WELL WITH YOU AND YOU WON\'T NEED HIM..HAVE YOU TALKED TO HIM ABOUT YOUR FEELINGS, I HAVE IT TOOK 30 YEARS BUT IT IS ALL OUT AND \'\'NO\'\' THE MARRIAGE IS TOTALLY DEAD, BUT THIS IS MY HOUSE AND I HAVE TO LIVE HERE AND I NEED HELP WITH CHORES,SHOPPING ETC,,,,MARRIAGE ,I NO LONGER BELEIVE IN LOVE OR MARRIAGE, NO AFTER ADULTERY...BE BLESSED,LIFE GOES ON,AND IT BELONGS TO YOU AND ME,CHERISH EACH MOMENT AND FIND JOY ,LOVE LUCY.