Lesson Learned....
These past few days I have caught myself admitting several things i continue to feel and find on here.....
Admitting when I have a problem or am feeling depressed...THIS IS WHERE I DO COME.
I have found others struggling like I have (still am) and I REMIND THEM OF THEIR WORTH ( and as a result did that again for myself)
And THEY ARE NOT TO BLAME FOR ANY OF THIS.
There are still times when i do retreat to old ways (trying to avoid pain and conflict-- both of which i hate) After sinking into another funk, i do wind up FINALLY REACHING OUT with just a simple post on here. I AM TRULY BLESSED TO HAVE FOUND quite a few CARING PEOPLE WHO HAVE ALSO BEEN THROUGH ALOT. MANY have REACHED OUT to SUPPORT and ENCOURAGE ME. To try to FINALLY CONVINCE ME TO STAND UP FOR MYSELF . They too are trying to share their lessons learned and spare me any more of the emptiness, pain and heartache they are all too familiar with.
Recently, I am also discovering , not only that I HAVE NEEDS (as well as what they are) but as I share more, I am discovering i AM NOW STUMBLING ACROSS A BOUNDARY OR TWO. (Who knew?) I do wonder if they could be a possible deal breaker with someone special..... but deep down these are things that will take me back to feeling ashamed and unworthy. Been there, done that.... it hurts too damn much.
While telling others they should stop ignoring their needs and it is time to do what they need to do for themselves, I AM REMINDED OF THE GENTLE HEADSLAPS I DID TELL ALL I WOULD ASK TO HELP KEEP ME ON MY PATH. YOU ALL HAVE BEEN SO DETERMINED TO HELP AND MORE THAN PATIENT. I am just lucky I suffered no concussions in the meantime. (Bare in mind, not only am i old, blonde, but a little slow.... not sure, but i may have rode the "short bus" many years ago. WAIT, did they HAVE BUSES back then???)
THANK YOU TO ALL--- from those who continue to reach out their hand to pull me back out of those funks and toward a life again.As well as to those who do allow me to try to extend that same hand to help them (and me as well)
MANY HUGS.
KIM
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I'm always encouraged to read your posts. I agree, you are not to blame. You have a difficult path, but you are facing it honestly and struggling through. Take it one day at a time. Also, as you said, you are worthy. I'm on your side and I'm rooting for you.
Thank you. :)
Life is very tough at times. I've shared with you what I have endured. Things in life can depress us if we allow it and yes, we can get in a funk at times. I try to make the best of what is. I can;t change the past and tomorrow isn't here yet so, I try to deal with today and just make plans for tomorrow.,
You already know I'm always part of the cheering squad ;)
Hugs and support to you.
You are simply amazing. Thank you, for all you do!
Just remember to give yourself the same courtesy that you give all of us which is...You have worth and are worthy of happiness and peace in your life :) Always remember that you are a wonderful, caring person and YOU deserve to be treated with respect and kindness. So often people like us want to GIVE love and respect yet others fail to do the same for us. We are deserving too my friend! Sometimes we have to learn to be a bit selfish for our own sake :) God bless my friend!