Less than ONE Month Left... God Help Me Hang On !
It won't be Long Now until I'm FINALLY FREE AGAIN ! YAY !!!!
NOVEMBER 3RD is when He's Leaving ! YAY !!!!
It's going to be SO GREAT to NOT have Someone around telling Me CONSTANTLY ... WHAT TO DO... WHEN TO DO IT.. AND EVEN HOW TO DO IT !!!!
YES, that is how Bad My Boyfriend has been, among OTHER glaring Faults that I've put up with for FAR TOO LONG NOW !!!!
He's been CONTROLLING, UN-FEELING, UN-COMPASSIONATE, UN-ROMANTIC, CRUEL, DEMANDING, UNCOMPROMISING, UNREASONABLE, ALMOST CONSTANTLY INTIMIDATING, SELF-CENTERED, SELFISH, AN EGO-MANIAC, IMPATIENT, AND LAST BUT ' DEFINITELY ' NOT LEAST... ALWAYS VERY MOODY TO THE EXTENT THAT I NEVER KNOW ' IF ' HE'LL TRULY BE IN A GOOD MOOD, OR A RAGING BAD MOOD ?!?!
Some Days He would change Moods LITERALLY as QUICK as Turning ON and OFF a LIGHT SWITCH !
It would happen so Quick that most of the Time it would catch Me completely offguard, and unaware. Before I knew what was even happening He'd be RAGING like an ANIMAL, AND STORMING AROUND THE APARTMENT DESTROYING THINGS, AND HE'D EITHER CHARGE UP TO ME AND HURT ME... OR HE'D MAKE SURE THAT I'D KNOW THAT HE COULD HURT ME AT ANY MOMENT IF HE DECIDED TO !
HOW CAN ANYONE LIVE WITH THAT I ASK YOU ?????
I'M SICK OF IT !
I HAD TO FINALLY SAY " ENOUGH " !
LIFE is Too Precious to Waste on Someone like HIM !
I've wasted FAR TOO MUCH Time on Him Already ! WHY should I Waste ANY MORE TIME on HIM when there's NO TRUE PROMISE, OR GUARANTEE, THAT HE WILL EVER CHANGE !
HE HASN'T REALLY CHANGED MUCH - IF AT ALL - IN THE 6 PLUS YEARS SINCE I FIRST MET HIM..... SO WHY WOULD HE ' SUDDENLY ' CHANGE NOW ?????
Of Course, ANY TIME I've EVER confronted Him about this He simply turns it BACK onto ME ! Just like an Abusive Man, I suppose.... ALWAYS doing Their Best to Blame EVERYONE ELSE BUT THEMSELVES !
I've bent over backwards to ALWAYS please Him... BUT does He recognize that FACT ?, OH HECK NO !
NOPE ! He just turns to Me, and says something like... " Well, WHAT about YOU ? YOU haven't Changed Yourself AT ALL during these Past Years We've known Each Other ! "
WHAT on EARTH did He think I could CHANGE ?????
His Favorite thing to PICK ON has ALWAYS been My Weight ! BUT He's ALWAYS missed ONE IMPORTANT THING ! I've explained to Him MORE THAN ONCE that I know I have a Bad Habit of being an " Emotional Eater ". I'll Snack when I'm feeling UPSET, OR STRESSED, OR DEPRESSED. So You tell Me.... HOW Was I EVER supposed to TRULY get that Straightened Out when He's ALWAYS BEEN STRESSING ME OUT !?!?!?
NOVEMBER 3RD is when He's Leaving ! YAY !!!!
It's going to be SO GREAT to NOT have Someone around telling Me CONSTANTLY ... WHAT TO DO... WHEN TO DO IT.. AND EVEN HOW TO DO IT !!!!
YES, that is how Bad My Boyfriend has been, among OTHER glaring Faults that I've put up with for FAR TOO LONG NOW !!!!
He's been CONTROLLING, UN-FEELING, UN-COMPASSIONATE, UN-ROMANTIC, CRUEL, DEMANDING, UNCOMPROMISING, UNREASONABLE, ALMOST CONSTANTLY INTIMIDATING, SELF-CENTERED, SELFISH, AN EGO-MANIAC, IMPATIENT, AND LAST BUT ' DEFINITELY ' NOT LEAST... ALWAYS VERY MOODY TO THE EXTENT THAT I NEVER KNOW ' IF ' HE'LL TRULY BE IN A GOOD MOOD, OR A RAGING BAD MOOD ?!?!
Some Days He would change Moods LITERALLY as QUICK as Turning ON and OFF a LIGHT SWITCH !
It would happen so Quick that most of the Time it would catch Me completely offguard, and unaware. Before I knew what was even happening He'd be RAGING like an ANIMAL, AND STORMING AROUND THE APARTMENT DESTROYING THINGS, AND HE'D EITHER CHARGE UP TO ME AND HURT ME... OR HE'D MAKE SURE THAT I'D KNOW THAT HE COULD HURT ME AT ANY MOMENT IF HE DECIDED TO !
HOW CAN ANYONE LIVE WITH THAT I ASK YOU ?????
I'M SICK OF IT !
I HAD TO FINALLY SAY " ENOUGH " !
LIFE is Too Precious to Waste on Someone like HIM !
I've wasted FAR TOO MUCH Time on Him Already ! WHY should I Waste ANY MORE TIME on HIM when there's NO TRUE PROMISE, OR GUARANTEE, THAT HE WILL EVER CHANGE !
HE HASN'T REALLY CHANGED MUCH - IF AT ALL - IN THE 6 PLUS YEARS SINCE I FIRST MET HIM..... SO WHY WOULD HE ' SUDDENLY ' CHANGE NOW ?????
Of Course, ANY TIME I've EVER confronted Him about this He simply turns it BACK onto ME ! Just like an Abusive Man, I suppose.... ALWAYS doing Their Best to Blame EVERYONE ELSE BUT THEMSELVES !
I've bent over backwards to ALWAYS please Him... BUT does He recognize that FACT ?, OH HECK NO !
NOPE ! He just turns to Me, and says something like... " Well, WHAT about YOU ? YOU haven't Changed Yourself AT ALL during these Past Years We've known Each Other ! "
WHAT on EARTH did He think I could CHANGE ?????
His Favorite thing to PICK ON has ALWAYS been My Weight ! BUT He's ALWAYS missed ONE IMPORTANT THING ! I've explained to Him MORE THAN ONCE that I know I have a Bad Habit of being an " Emotional Eater ". I'll Snack when I'm feeling UPSET, OR STRESSED, OR DEPRESSED. So You tell Me.... HOW Was I EVER supposed to TRULY get that Straightened Out when He's ALWAYS BEEN STRESSING ME OUT !?!?!?
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