Leave me alone!

My ex....Why does he keep emailing me?  I don't want to talk to him.  I told him I didn't want to talk to him!  I don't know what to do!  Go away!
I am losing it a little.... eye has been twitching like mad!
I haven't barely eaten since Thanksgiving.  I keep disappearing from my family... recoiling.  I don't want them to see me upset.  I don't know...its hard to tell what I feel anymore.  I wanna be alone... like really alone! 
Don, my step-dad, was such a dick to me the other day.  I feel kinda bad for him cause everyone saw that he was being a dick....oh his poor ego!  Now I don't wanna look at him! oh where have I heard this before! So Don is my father figure...modeling misogynistic behavior...no wonder I was with a self absorbed asshole for two years!
And then there is this strange urge to push myself to the limit....to walk till I pass out, to take a bunch of drugs...anything but this agony of flat line...stagnating in a pool of self doubt and transient sorrow.
So fuck....