Leaving
I am leaving to Hong Kong with no return dates in mind. I am leaving my parents here and I will be staying with my uncle and aunt.
I do not know how I feel - excited (not), sad (quite), hopeful (not really)... just numb as it can be.
It has been over 30 years though I visited several times. Living and visiting are two different things.
Will I be able to adjust? Will I like the crowds? Will I get the necessary medical care I am getting here? Will I able to find a job? What job?.... just full of questions and fears.
I cannot stay for the income I receive here is not enough for me to live on. Plus I have to sell the house, move stuff... I can't deal with it.. I am losing it all, my marriage, my job, my career, my animals, my belongings, my savings, and most of all, I lost my son.
My shrink said that it was alright for me to think I have a difficult life compared to the norm. Yes, I do have a difficult life. Why is that God? What are You trying to make out of me?
In heavy sinking heart.
I will have internet and I will still be in tough. Take care my friends.
I do not know how I feel - excited (not), sad (quite), hopeful (not really)... just numb as it can be.
It has been over 30 years though I visited several times. Living and visiting are two different things.
Will I be able to adjust? Will I like the crowds? Will I get the necessary medical care I am getting here? Will I able to find a job? What job?.... just full of questions and fears.
I cannot stay for the income I receive here is not enough for me to live on. Plus I have to sell the house, move stuff... I can't deal with it.. I am losing it all, my marriage, my job, my career, my animals, my belongings, my savings, and most of all, I lost my son.
My shrink said that it was alright for me to think I have a difficult life compared to the norm. Yes, I do have a difficult life. Why is that God? What are You trying to make out of me?
In heavy sinking heart.
I will have internet and I will still be in tough. Take care my friends.
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