Leaving
I am leaving to Hong Kong with no return dates in mind. I am leaving my parents here and I will be staying with my uncle and aunt.
I do not know how I feel - excited (not), sad (quite), hopeful (not really)... just numb as it can be.
It has been over 30 years though I visited several times. Living and visiting are two different things.
Will I be able to adjust? Will I like the crowds? Will I get the necessary medical care I am getting here? Will I able to find a job? What job?.... just full of questions and fears.
I cannot stay for the income I receive here is not enough for me to live on. Plus I have to sell the house, move stuff... I can't deal with it.. I am losing it all, my marriage, my job, my career, my animals, my belongings, my savings, and most of all, I lost my son.
My shrink said that it was alright for me to think I have a difficult life compared to the norm. Yes, I do have a difficult life. Why is that God? What are You trying to make out of me?
In heavy sinking heart.
I will have internet and I will still be in tough. Take care my friends.
I do not know how I feel - excited (not), sad (quite), hopeful (not really)... just numb as it can be.
It has been over 30 years though I visited several times. Living and visiting are two different things.
Will I be able to adjust? Will I like the crowds? Will I get the necessary medical care I am getting here? Will I able to find a job? What job?.... just full of questions and fears.
I cannot stay for the income I receive here is not enough for me to live on. Plus I have to sell the house, move stuff... I can't deal with it.. I am losing it all, my marriage, my job, my career, my animals, my belongings, my savings, and most of all, I lost my son.
My shrink said that it was alright for me to think I have a difficult life compared to the norm. Yes, I do have a difficult life. Why is that God? What are You trying to make out of me?
In heavy sinking heart.
I will have internet and I will still be in tough. Take care my friends.
Replies
Dear Cheria,
My heart goes out to you. The quote goes \"God never closes one door, without opening another\". Not sure how I feel about this quote, because it\'s seems impossible to make sense out of all the suffering, we go through, at times. I can only wish you the best. Praying this is a turning point in your life, to find some happiness. Knowing you will always have the pain of losing your boy, in this life. I still hope you can find some peace and love, wherever you go. Keep in touch and let us know, about the changes, in your life. Wishing you only the best and healing of mind,body and spirit. Hugs. Gay
Hoping that this unfolds as you need it to. Above all, that healing moments can be yours. So many new beginnings and having to leave what you know for the unknown. I hope that many earthly angels will be on your path and that you won\'t feel alone in this new life that you will be creating. Peace to you. Love, Joanie
Cheria
So sorry to hear you are leaving, I just hope you can find some peace where you are going and have some of the hurt taken away. We think about you a lot and God bless and keep us in you prays.
love, Ron
Please have a safe trip, let us know when you arrive, please remember you have moms here that love and support you with thoughts and prayers.(((hugs)))) Nora
I am so sorry for you. It\'s just not fair to have so many problems at once. I will pray that you arrive safe and find some peace. Stay in touch, love and peace, Roselle
Please stay in touch. I\'m a new friend, whose lost my eldest son in March 2010. We will never be the same. Our hearts are broken. I want to wish you a good, safe trip and hope that you find help and love in your new home.