Learning to accept love!

My boyfriend tells me all the time that he loves me. He tells me he loves me with all his whole heart, yet I always think that there is some other woman in his life. He is an hour and a half way from me so I don't know what goes on when I'm not there. Do I trust him, yes! His phone was temporarily out of service yesterday so my mind starts to think the worst. I drove him home on Sunday and we stopped at McDonald's where you currently is working and the growth when go asked who I was and I told him I'm his girl, so when the phone was out of service I was like oh the chick paying for the following shut it off when she found out about me. The phone back on in in an hour to so I could just been poor service from my phone to his cell phone.
I will continue to work with my therapist  on how to accept love, and not think of this relationship like that of my parents relationship. I can't remember the last time I called and talked my mother and she's been truly happy about my dad every single time she has some complaint about something he's done. Nate is not my father!
I am learning to accept love! I know it's a slow process, one that I would have to work through. I know that it is something that I will l learn to do, because if I don't I will end up pushing him away and that is something I don't want to do!. Learning to accept love, I am loved !