Lately I wonder
I have been here now for almost 3 years. I came here because of the things that I have been through and experienced in my life. It's true, I am older than most that are on this site. I joined 4 basic groups. I have been through a divorce years ago so, I felt I qualified for the Breakups & Divorce Group. I have been through a Nervous Breakdown and Depression so, I felt I qualified for the Depression Group. I had a son killed in a car wreck in 2005, so, I felt I qualified for the Bereavement Group. I have been a Minister and Pastor for 34 years so, I felt I would join the Christian church 24/7 group.
Ever since I have been here, I have reached out to those in the Breakups & Divorce Groups, Depression Group, and the Bereavement Groups. I have tried to be an encourager for those dealing with the situations and issues that arise in life, that these groups address.
Yes, I am an ex-biker, ex-alcoholic, drug user and Biker Gang associate. I am also a Minister, Counselor, encourager and hopefully considered a friend to those who truly know me.
I comment on the posts that I feel is relevant to what I have experienced and endured. I have pm'd those that I felt was best to keep private. Hopefully, I have been a blessing to those I have tried to help.
What amazes me is that I get lashed at by some that I compliment and try to encourage. Maybe I am just getting too old to be here. I write messages for the Christian Church 24/7 Group, almost every week and few comment about them. I even wonder if they are even read by very many.
I have undergone a lot of stress lately with my sister's stroke, my ex dying of Cancer, and a particular friend who seems to have turned against me for some reason. I have done my best to be a blessing ever since I have been here. If I have touched some hearts and lives, for the better then, maybe me being here has had some merit. Maybe it's the stress, maybe it's the depression coming back, maybe it's the fact that I am just getting to old to be productive here anymore, I don't know. I am down about things lately but, I was told to write my feelings down so, I did, for whatever it's worth.
Ever since I have been here, I have reached out to those in the Breakups & Divorce Groups, Depression Group, and the Bereavement Groups. I have tried to be an encourager for those dealing with the situations and issues that arise in life, that these groups address.
Yes, I am an ex-biker, ex-alcoholic, drug user and Biker Gang associate. I am also a Minister, Counselor, encourager and hopefully considered a friend to those who truly know me.
I comment on the posts that I feel is relevant to what I have experienced and endured. I have pm'd those that I felt was best to keep private. Hopefully, I have been a blessing to those I have tried to help.
What amazes me is that I get lashed at by some that I compliment and try to encourage. Maybe I am just getting too old to be here. I write messages for the Christian Church 24/7 Group, almost every week and few comment about them. I even wonder if they are even read by very many.
I have undergone a lot of stress lately with my sister's stroke, my ex dying of Cancer, and a particular friend who seems to have turned against me for some reason. I have done my best to be a blessing ever since I have been here. If I have touched some hearts and lives, for the better then, maybe me being here has had some merit. Maybe it's the stress, maybe it's the depression coming back, maybe it's the fact that I am just getting to old to be productive here anymore, I don't know. I am down about things lately but, I was told to write my feelings down so, I did, for whatever it's worth.
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