Last stretch feels like the hardest

I'm sick, I missed class and my practicum today because I can't tolerate my anxiety lately. Feeling exhausted from trying to maintain. Fear of life after this is getting me really down and hopeless so I'm trying to stay present but its really hard. I only have 3 weeks left, but much to accomplish in that time. I have good days and bad with my ED but my anxiety is high every day and my depression is already sinking in with self-doubt and fear of the future and thoughts of ending my life when i finish this. I can't see any value in continuing this battle except my daughter needs me. I might seek treatment after this month is up. I need help but don't know what will ever be able to make me feel happy and peace again. Sorry this is depressing.