Last round
As soon as AF arrives, I will be starting our last round of Clomid. After conceiving so easily with our first child, I really thought this time would be just as easy. It seems that is not the case. It is so hard to say this, but I honestly think that I will never have another child. I don't want to give up, but it is getting harder and harder to do this. And the worst part is, there is nothing else I can really do. My ovaries just aren't producing eggs, at least not viable eggs.
I can't afford IVF to even have eggs donated. (My sister has offered her eggs...) I feel like I have let DH down as he is fine and really wants a little baby. I do too, obviously.
As I go into this last round I have kind of resigned myself not to get my hopes up at all. There is no reason to even have more hope than I will actually ovulate and we will BD at the right time. At this point, that is all I can hope for... That and I wont grow anymore Ping-Pong sized cysts in my ovaries. (THEY HURT!) I used to want 4 children, but I think that is not going to happen.
I can't afford IVF to even have eggs donated. (My sister has offered her eggs...) I feel like I have let DH down as he is fine and really wants a little baby. I do too, obviously.
As I go into this last round I have kind of resigned myself not to get my hopes up at all. There is no reason to even have more hope than I will actually ovulate and we will BD at the right time. At this point, that is all I can hope for... That and I wont grow anymore Ping-Pong sized cysts in my ovaries. (THEY HURT!) I used to want 4 children, but I think that is not going to happen.
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