Last Night was Scary to say the Least ! *****
Last Night I had " thought " at first was going to be a Peaceful Night, but I had No Idea of what was going to happen when I least expected it... as it turned out.
It took Me somewhere around 40 - 50 Minutes, or so, to Cook Dinner for the Two of Us - Spaghetti. I was in the Kitchen sitting Close to the Stove Cooking that entire Time. I can't Stand to Cook because of My Bad Knees, so I have no choice but to have a Chair in the Kitchen to sit at the Stove to Cook. I didn't mind Cooking, but it wasn't Fun as You can imagine. It's Hot work sitting Close to a Stove while You've got One, and then Two Burners going.
So by the Time I was completely done Cooking I was Very Hot, and Thirsty. I always use a LOT of Ice in My Sodas anyways, but Especially when I'm Hot like that I truly NEED LOTS of ICE in My Drink.
That's a Reasonable Thing, " Don't You Think ? "
Well, apparently My Boyfriend DID NOT THINK THAT WAY !!!!!
We were Planning on Watching a Wrestling Program on TV that started at 9PM, and it was Just Starting when I finished Cooking. This got Him in a Tizzy to begin with I think. He can't stand to Not ALREADY be Sitting down with Something to Eat, and/or Drink, AS SOON as a TV Show Starts ! So As Soon as I told Him that I was done Cooking He INSISTED that I go into the Living Room, and sit down in My Recliner Chair.
ALL I SAID... was that I STILL Needed to get a Cup of ICE for My Drink, especially since I was HOT from Cooking.
HE WENT BALLISTIC ! BESERK ! COMPLETELY OUT OF HIS DAMN MIND !!!!!! I'm NOT exaggerating at all, either !
He completely FLEW into a HOT RAGE just because I said I needed to get some ICE !
At First His Answer to Me was something like...
" TOO BAD !!!! THE PROGRAM'S ALREADY STARTING ! "
So I THOUGHT the REASONABLE thing for Me to say Back was... " OKAY, THEN I'LL JUST GET IT DURING A COMMERCIAL. "
BUT... Even that wasn't good enough !
He started LITERALLY THROWING THINGS AROUND IN THE KITCHEN.... HE TOOK ONE OF THE ICE CUBE TRAYS AND BROKE IT IN HIS HANDS WHILE DUMPING THE ICE OUT OF IT... ALL OVER THE DINNING ROOM TABLE ! Then EVEN WHEN HE GRABBED A BROOM TO SUPPOSEDLY START CLEANING UP SOME OF HIS DESTRUCTION... HE BROKE THE BROOM HANDLE IN HIS HAND WHILE SWEEPING THE KITCHEN, AND BANGING THE BROOM ALL OVER THE PLACE !
Oh, and I almost forgot.... Just Before He started some of this Destruction He had STORMED UP TO ME - AS I WAS SITTING CRINGING IN FEAR IN MY RECLINER CHAIR, AND SLAMMED A 2-LITER BOTTLE OF PEPSI INTO MY LEG !!!! That was HIS IDEA of " Handing Me " the Soda !... At That Time !
As IF ALL of that Wasn't Bad Enough... During ALL of the THROWING AROUND, AND DESTRUCTION, HE KEPT SCREAMING, AND YELLING, AND CALLING ME OBSCENE NAMES !
When He realized that from Destroying the Ice Cube Tray there was Pieces of Plastic ALL OVER THE PLACE, He grabbed Up the Vaccuum Cleaner, and started Vacuuming the Dinning Area, and a little Bit into the Living Room !
BUT... The Thing about THIS was that when He got Close to Me with the Vaccuum Cleaner, HE SLAMMED IT INTO MY RIGHT ANKLE !
EARLIER... LIKE I EXPLAINED, WHEN HE HAD SLAMMING THE PEPSI 2-LITER BOTTLE INTO MY LEG, I HAD SCREAMED OUT IN SHOCK, AND PAIN.... AND AS SOON AS I DID THIS HE STUCK HIS BALLED UP FIST IN MY FACE, AND SAID THAT IF I SCREAMED AGAIN THAT HE'D KILL ME !!!!
Of course I just sat there FROZEN IN FEAR, and I was trying Hard to NOT Cry but I couldn't help it ! Tears were rolling down my Cheeks like Rivers.
After ALL of this He went Out for a " WALK " to Calm Down.... AFTER He Destroyed a Few things in the Bedroom while changing His clothes.
I'm Thankful that He went OUT for a Walk then, because IF He hadn't gotten Himself calmed down I'm fairly Positive He would have Hurt Me even MORE !
During ALL of the Chaos I did Think about Trying to Call the Cops... BUT I was Terrified of What He would Do to Me IF He realized what I was doing... which Of COURSE He would have !
So... As Twisted as it may seem... I was Actually " Safer " by NOT Calling the Cops on Him Last Night... Even Though I Know all too well that He Deserved it !
The ONLY thing I have Right Now that I'm HANGING ONTO to TRY to Keep My Head Straight, and NOT Let Him drive Me completely NUTS ! ... Is the FACT that I've ALREADY made it CRYSTAL CLEAR to Him that I want him GONE !
He's supposed to LEAVE NO LATER THAN NOVEMBER 3RD !
After Last Night, that can't come SOON ENOUGH !
I would try to get Him to LEAVE RIGHT NOW... but Financially I Need His Help with the Bills for September, AND Besides IF I tried to FORCE him to LEAVE BEFORE HE HAS A PLACE LINED UP TO GO TO... HE PROMISED ME THAT HE WOULD MAKE HIS " LEAVING PROCESS " VERY UGLY WITH ME !!!!
I don't want to even BEGIN to Think of What That could Mean !
So, I'm TRYING HARD to Keep the Peace.... EVEN THOUGH.... HIS RAGE IS ALWAYS JUST UNDER HIS SURFACE... WAITING FOR THE LEAST LITTLE THING TO MAKE IT EXPLODE ! ... AS YOU CAN SEE BY WHAT HAPPENED TO ME LAST NIGHT !
It took Me somewhere around 40 - 50 Minutes, or so, to Cook Dinner for the Two of Us - Spaghetti. I was in the Kitchen sitting Close to the Stove Cooking that entire Time. I can't Stand to Cook because of My Bad Knees, so I have no choice but to have a Chair in the Kitchen to sit at the Stove to Cook. I didn't mind Cooking, but it wasn't Fun as You can imagine. It's Hot work sitting Close to a Stove while You've got One, and then Two Burners going.
So by the Time I was completely done Cooking I was Very Hot, and Thirsty. I always use a LOT of Ice in My Sodas anyways, but Especially when I'm Hot like that I truly NEED LOTS of ICE in My Drink.
That's a Reasonable Thing, " Don't You Think ? "
Well, apparently My Boyfriend DID NOT THINK THAT WAY !!!!!
We were Planning on Watching a Wrestling Program on TV that started at 9PM, and it was Just Starting when I finished Cooking. This got Him in a Tizzy to begin with I think. He can't stand to Not ALREADY be Sitting down with Something to Eat, and/or Drink, AS SOON as a TV Show Starts ! So As Soon as I told Him that I was done Cooking He INSISTED that I go into the Living Room, and sit down in My Recliner Chair.
ALL I SAID... was that I STILL Needed to get a Cup of ICE for My Drink, especially since I was HOT from Cooking.
HE WENT BALLISTIC ! BESERK ! COMPLETELY OUT OF HIS DAMN MIND !!!!!! I'm NOT exaggerating at all, either !
He completely FLEW into a HOT RAGE just because I said I needed to get some ICE !
At First His Answer to Me was something like...
" TOO BAD !!!! THE PROGRAM'S ALREADY STARTING ! "
So I THOUGHT the REASONABLE thing for Me to say Back was... " OKAY, THEN I'LL JUST GET IT DURING A COMMERCIAL. "
BUT... Even that wasn't good enough !
He started LITERALLY THROWING THINGS AROUND IN THE KITCHEN.... HE TOOK ONE OF THE ICE CUBE TRAYS AND BROKE IT IN HIS HANDS WHILE DUMPING THE ICE OUT OF IT... ALL OVER THE DINNING ROOM TABLE ! Then EVEN WHEN HE GRABBED A BROOM TO SUPPOSEDLY START CLEANING UP SOME OF HIS DESTRUCTION... HE BROKE THE BROOM HANDLE IN HIS HAND WHILE SWEEPING THE KITCHEN, AND BANGING THE BROOM ALL OVER THE PLACE !
Oh, and I almost forgot.... Just Before He started some of this Destruction He had STORMED UP TO ME - AS I WAS SITTING CRINGING IN FEAR IN MY RECLINER CHAIR, AND SLAMMED A 2-LITER BOTTLE OF PEPSI INTO MY LEG !!!! That was HIS IDEA of " Handing Me " the Soda !... At That Time !
As IF ALL of that Wasn't Bad Enough... During ALL of the THROWING AROUND, AND DESTRUCTION, HE KEPT SCREAMING, AND YELLING, AND CALLING ME OBSCENE NAMES !
When He realized that from Destroying the Ice Cube Tray there was Pieces of Plastic ALL OVER THE PLACE, He grabbed Up the Vaccuum Cleaner, and started Vacuuming the Dinning Area, and a little Bit into the Living Room !
BUT... The Thing about THIS was that when He got Close to Me with the Vaccuum Cleaner, HE SLAMMED IT INTO MY RIGHT ANKLE !
EARLIER... LIKE I EXPLAINED, WHEN HE HAD SLAMMING THE PEPSI 2-LITER BOTTLE INTO MY LEG, I HAD SCREAMED OUT IN SHOCK, AND PAIN.... AND AS SOON AS I DID THIS HE STUCK HIS BALLED UP FIST IN MY FACE, AND SAID THAT IF I SCREAMED AGAIN THAT HE'D KILL ME !!!!
Of course I just sat there FROZEN IN FEAR, and I was trying Hard to NOT Cry but I couldn't help it ! Tears were rolling down my Cheeks like Rivers.
After ALL of this He went Out for a " WALK " to Calm Down.... AFTER He Destroyed a Few things in the Bedroom while changing His clothes.
I'm Thankful that He went OUT for a Walk then, because IF He hadn't gotten Himself calmed down I'm fairly Positive He would have Hurt Me even MORE !
During ALL of the Chaos I did Think about Trying to Call the Cops... BUT I was Terrified of What He would Do to Me IF He realized what I was doing... which Of COURSE He would have !
So... As Twisted as it may seem... I was Actually " Safer " by NOT Calling the Cops on Him Last Night... Even Though I Know all too well that He Deserved it !
The ONLY thing I have Right Now that I'm HANGING ONTO to TRY to Keep My Head Straight, and NOT Let Him drive Me completely NUTS ! ... Is the FACT that I've ALREADY made it CRYSTAL CLEAR to Him that I want him GONE !
He's supposed to LEAVE NO LATER THAN NOVEMBER 3RD !
After Last Night, that can't come SOON ENOUGH !
I would try to get Him to LEAVE RIGHT NOW... but Financially I Need His Help with the Bills for September, AND Besides IF I tried to FORCE him to LEAVE BEFORE HE HAS A PLACE LINED UP TO GO TO... HE PROMISED ME THAT HE WOULD MAKE HIS " LEAVING PROCESS " VERY UGLY WITH ME !!!!
I don't want to even BEGIN to Think of What That could Mean !
So, I'm TRYING HARD to Keep the Peace.... EVEN THOUGH.... HIS RAGE IS ALWAYS JUST UNDER HIS SURFACE... WAITING FOR THE LEAST LITTLE THING TO MAKE IT EXPLODE ! ... AS YOU CAN SEE BY WHAT HAPPENED TO ME LAST NIGHT !
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