Last night was not such a good night.
Last night he kissed me goodnight as he always does and my mind went straight to did he give the OW my kiss that night he didn't come home? Then I proceeded to have nightmares about H having sex with other women and talking to them as if they were his best friend. I felt as if they were in a glass bubble that I just kept pounding on saying, "Love me, talk to me, I am here, choose me." and then I woke up crying. So here I am on here ranting to who knows who. BLAH!!
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I know exactly how you\'re feeling...I have those same disgusting thoughts about the H with the OW!! It makes me furious, then depressed. You just have to find the strength to SNAP out of it!! I have to force myself to think of other things. But for me, those thoughts remind me that I have to follow my plan...first the 180, second, I have to think about me and my children. You are completely normal in having those thoughts...they will come and go. Be strong my friend!! You have my support!! Try to have a good weekend! ((HUGS))
I\'ve been there. I once dreamt that my H and the OW were driving in MY new car. And that my H let her drive MY new car even before me. I was so upset and woke up crying and yelling and screaming at him. I cried myself to sleep that night. We all have bad nights, and some really bad ones. My support with you. Stay strong and follow the 180.