Last night....not so good

Can somebody tell that guy you aren't supposed to keep punching when the other guy goes down. I mean come on, I think I was down by the third round but sheeeez, I feel like I went the full ten. Seriously though, last night wasn't any good. I took Tylenol P.M. and melatonin plus. I still tossed and turned and every time I got up I threw the covers off the bed and stormed into the bathroom pissen' pissed off. Got up at 5:00 and took my Riba and tried to go back to bed. I don't go in till 9:45 on Mondays but nooooo. Garbage trucks beep beep beepin down the street at 6:00 Neighbors with loud cars...yada yada yada. Caved in and made some peanut butter toast and decaff and took 1/2 a Xanax and sat outside and waited for the sun to come up. Even thats late...COME ON!!!!
Thanx...I needed to get that off my chest...along with that truck somebody left parked there.
Soooo my only choice is to go back outside, have some more decaff, a couple more smokes, and just shake it all off. The day is going to happen whether I'm in it or not so I guess I'll just take my flag and join the parade.
Just grummpy....It'l pass

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deleted_user
deleted_user

laughing....... i just hobbled two blocks in the freezing rain to the deli. upon entering i saw the deli guy SNEEZE TWICE into cold cuts!!!!! how gross is that??? turned around and hobbled home. (hobbling from blisters on heels for wearing shoes for the first time in a year) what a life. at least you didnt have a riba rage; i would have driven into parked truck screaming words i didnt even know existed. youre doing very well, tim.
deleted_user
deleted_user

Laughed, and sad...... Love reading your post as you are so descriptive.... One can only imagine what is going through E.B. and Moe\'s thoughts right now!:-) I sure hope your day gets better... Hang in there Tim, we are all pulling for you dear friend! Big (((HUG)))
deleted_user
deleted_user

Hey Tim, know i am late. work is mad crazy, but i loveyour analogies and so descriptive i feel like i am sitting outside your place. my bedroom window faces the front of my house and i hear the garbage trucks and i live on a main avenue, so cars are swishing by at all hours. i use a box fan as white noise, the hum drowns out everything, i just turn it away from me so it doesn\'t blow on me, i know its wierd, but it works for me.even normally and not on tx, I have had trouble sleeping. i can\'t take melatonin for some reason it makes me nauseous or an upset stomach, do u need to eat with it or what? idk U r doing well. i gave up the smokes though about six weeks now. don\'tmiss it too much. u need to do what u need to do my friend if it helps to calm u then it\'s all good....keep on doing your thing daily don\'t stay idle clean,cook, read if u can concentrate. go outside walk around. whatever it is u can do to distract yourself and yes the day will begin and the sun will come up or at least the drab winter daylight, but i promise the days will go faster, i know its like rushing your life some, but this chapter i know u would like to be over with on then on with life as Tim lived before, or even better, free of the dragon.....yea!
serenityha
serenityha

i really like your last statement. i\'ve never heard it put that way and it\'s great. i\'m going to share that!! during my 2nd round of sleep this morn when i was finally getting to dream stage. the roof dogs were barking like crazy and i was thinking they were in my bed room!