Last night
Last night I got thinking how it wold have been my 20th week... we would have found out if she was a little girl like I think she was... we would have got to see her again growing stronger, I would have been so happy....
Instead I spent my time missing her, I had to do an OPK, I had to face trying again, checking our account to see if we would have enough for a frozen transfer in case trying naturally didn't work this month... it was so hard
my husband doesn't get it, when I say I feel sad he says Why? and when I say do you really have to ask me that? he gets all unconfortable, like he doesn't want to talk about it any more... it breaks my heart
I feel like I am the only one who misses my baby, the only one who cares any more. Like for every one else she never existed, never mattered
I want my child back...
Instead I spent my time missing her, I had to do an OPK, I had to face trying again, checking our account to see if we would have enough for a frozen transfer in case trying naturally didn't work this month... it was so hard
my husband doesn't get it, when I say I feel sad he says Why? and when I say do you really have to ask me that? he gets all unconfortable, like he doesn't want to talk about it any more... it breaks my heart
I feel like I am the only one who misses my baby, the only one who cares any more. Like for every one else she never existed, never mattered
I want my child back...
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*HUGS* I am so sorry. I think about things like that, too. I would have been 15 weeks. I would be almost to the point of feeling her move and kick. Instead, I\'m on my period, getting ready for our first month of ttc again.
I\'m so sorry your husband isn\'t getting it. I think that\'s very common with men, they just don\'t seem to understand how pervasive the grief really is. My husband asks why I\'m sad, too, and I try really hard not to be annoyed by that. I had a bad day of missing my baby, too.
I hope you conceive again easily and have a healthy baby, and I hope you have better and brighter days soon.
Hey sweetheart! I know exactly how you feel, too. It\'s so true that a woman has instinct from day one. We fall in love, we just have that innate sense of love and protection over out children, and at any stage, and level of our relationship- the loss of that child is unbearable. My little one would have been over a year now! I miss that sweet little spirit every day.... but I believe in my heart of hearts that God is protecting her. That she is playing, happily in his arms, and when I\'m ready to welcome her into my life... God will bring her back to me. (I lost her during pregnancy). Just maintain your faith that this little he/she was meant to be a part of your life, pray, and remind god how willing you are to make this little one\'s dreams come true. I\'m sure that he will listen. Big hugs! Miss Em