last night

i have a really sore back and didnt get much sleep on the bed last night...this sucks im so tired, my mom is makeing dinner right now. she does the very traditional stuff, turkey and pumpkin pie...all home made. its nice i geuss but im not hungrey right now and my arms hurt alot from cutting last night. i kept cutting the same spot on one cutt and i only stoped when i went over it a last time and it was a seering/burning pain idk why...i cutt deeper then i have in a while, no tears, none at all....for the first time in a while i was like at peace with what i was doing to myself....