LAST NIGHT
Yestarday afternoon, I was replying to someones message to me and the power went out. It came back on mometarily. But my internet did not. I messed with it all night. I threw things, cussed alot, layed on the floor trying to figure out the cords, nothing worked. I finally gave up and started rearranging my office and listened to my music on the computer. Well, my anger turned into depression and the urgency to cut. I had to cut, I wanted to cut and I needed to cut. I, as you can guess, cut. I cut the hell out of my stomach and I cut my right wrist. I hit the vein but I once again let it bleed for awile until I felt woosey and I cleaned it and doctored it and bandaged it , then I wrapped a brace around it to add pressure. It stopped bleeding and I went to bed. When I get stressed, I tend to overreact. I know this. I called the phone company and they came out fixed it this morning. It was a bad wire outside and my cord was bad inside. It was something that simple and that was all. I did self-harm to myself and it was somethung simple. I do not know what to do about these uncontrollable urges that I am experiencing. Anyway, I just wanted to explain what has been going on in my little world. Thanks for listening.
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jeanne i wish there was something we could do. have you talked to anyone for help yet? i think everyone has SEVERE irritation about computer woes..LOL...
I am so sorry to hear about this. Makes smoking seem pretty lame...then again, I guess not. I will so be praying for you...I will pray that as 2 Cor. 10:13 says...that the Lord will show you a way out that you can stand up under the temptation.
that is so sad, i know its madening when something just won\'t go your way, there is nothing worse than frustration, but that is pretty bad cutting yourself i bet your real sore this morning, i wish i could help you, maybe you need some anger management to help you when things go wrong, help you learn to cope without cutting, or maybe get a pillow close by at all times where you can punch hit kick throw do what you like to it, and not hurt yourself,
i can\'t imagine how you could do this to yourself, none of your friends want you to do this to yourself we want you to be happy,
its a bit like quitting smoking you have to have willpower and keep saying NO when the urge to cut comes on,
you can do this if you can quit smoking i am sure if you really wanted to you could say no to yourself when the anger arises,
please take care, find help if you need it, none of us want to lose you,
Sending you love and prayers.
I am really sorry that you have been filling bad. I understand what it is like to cut yourself. I have cut myself in the past too. I will be praying for you. Take Care. Dawn
that was an awful thing to happen to you, but there is always a simple answere to things that go wrong, you look after yourself and try not to hurt yourself, i know it easier said then done, but think of other things, you are in my thoughts
I am sorry you had a rough one. Been there done that and recently ! I hope you get to feelin better soon and though I have no answers in this situation holding comparison I do have a great big Hug for you! Not much but you are thought of and cared for my many!
Brandon
jeanne sweetie-I was SO sad to read this about you.
:( PLEASE call on any of us when you feel the urge again to cut. PLEASE don\'t do that.I am genuinely worried about you-and yes BrandonH is right-you ARE THOUGHT OF AND CARED BY MANY HERE! PLEASE don\'t ever forget that. We luv you. Hugs from me and Molly (my pooch). Hugs xoxoxo Christina
Oh, Sweetie I\'m so sorry. Is there someone you can call when you get this stressed? If not message me and I will give you my number. I don\'t know anything about what you are going through, but I can be there if you need a friend. We all love you here so much! Prayers Always. God BLess Kel
Oh my goodness, you need to get some one to call that you can talk to when that happens. I feeel so bad for you. I will pray for you and send you lots of love and hugs and hope you can find a good friend you can talk with.. i am so sorry about all this it breaks my heart to hear your hurting yourself..
I\'m in agreement with your friends Jeanne...we don\'t want to see you hurt yourself. I don\'t understand what the cutting thing is all about, cripes I don\'t even like digging around with a sterile small needle to pull a sliver. That brings me to another point, aside from hitting a vein (now that\'s scary!)and maybe not being able to staunch the bleeding(OMG unthinkable) what if you get a rip snorting infection that has to be treated with antibiotics? That\'s a trip to see the doctor which can be expensive. An untreated infection can throb for days and lead to a host of other problems. Get a library card if you don\'t already have one and keep some reading material on hand. I know TV can be boring but there are also some great shows on. Pick up the phone and call someone. You have a bunch of friends here who give a damn about what happens to you. The internet is just the internet. Yeah it can be addicting but there\'s a whole lot of life to live offline. My hard drive crashed and burned a couple of months ago. I had to replace it and the idiot who \"talked\" me through the installation messed up and I ended up doing damage to my CD drive so I replaced that too. I had to wait for parts and you know what? I found things I loved to do once again. I forgot how much I like to knit or crochet at night when the TV is on. I got some books that I enjoyed reading. I sat down and actually penned some letters and actually sent them via snail mail. I did some scrapbooking. There is so much more than just the internet my friend and you can meet some lovely folks out in the real world who enjoy some of the same things that you do. It\'s worth a shot!
Oh honey, I know things can get real bad at time but please don\'t hurt yourself! You are priceless and it would be a real tragedy if anything bad was to happen!