Hey there... You do not have to prove anything. I KNOW. I have been there. I\'ve been thinking of ways to get to Canada all the way from Tucson, Arizona. Biking would be a great way not only to get there but raise awareness. It might take some time though. Maybe my dad wants to go on a vacation this weekend and we could drive up. Know that at least someone out there loves you and always will. I know how it feels to want to kill myself everyday. The pain of not having the strength to live anymore is simply overwhelming. Honestly, I myself keep wondering what I am doing here. I just hope that my life can at least touch someone else and make the world a better place. We should start a small community where we could just live on our own... Our rules. No stress. Modern life is killing us. Not ourselves. Hang in there... I\'m on the edge with you and maybe we can find a way to either jump to level ground or climb up the ravine. I\'m so sorry that there is only my writing to help you through.
i think you need to get back to a doc, if the one you have isnt listening, you need find one that will. i know the feeling well, and what its like being alone with them. i would hope you would exhaust all alternatives before considering this option. while i realize how intense it is, from experience, i dont want to act on it, because of my pets. you have a great deal of life ahead, you need to get to a foreward thinking doctor that will combine meds, individual and maybe group therapy with pple your same age and kinda in the same boat. its difficult to do this alone. but i do think you still have options to try before you should ever consider suicide. if you feel your parents are not listening a good doc can chat with them and make them understand the seriousness of this. pple can be so callous, my mom was like that with me, and so i understand it does make you feel just as you say, must i prove how serious i am, how bad i feel. that alone can be the thing that pushes pple over the edge as its such a huge rejection when feeling so desperate. but you do know pple here understand. and id like you to promise to try to get to your doctor. and if you feel this one is no help, tell your mom that you need a new doc. but say it in a way, like this. i really want to sort out my problems and feel better, but i think a new doctor would be a big help. i know its hard, but you cant give up now. you have alot to give to this world, things you want to accomplish. please keep fighting these feelings and thoughts. take care, todd
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Hey there... You do not have to prove anything. I KNOW. I have been there. I\'ve been thinking of ways to get to Canada all the way from Tucson, Arizona. Biking would be a great way not only to get there but raise awareness. It might take some time though. Maybe my dad wants to go on a vacation this weekend and we could drive up. Know that at least someone out there loves you and always will. I know how it feels to want to kill myself everyday. The pain of not having the strength to live anymore is simply overwhelming. Honestly, I myself keep wondering what I am doing here. I just hope that my life can at least touch someone else and make the world a better place. We should start a small community where we could just live on our own... Our rules. No stress. Modern life is killing us. Not ourselves. Hang in there... I\'m on the edge with you and maybe we can find a way to either jump to level ground or climb up the ravine. I\'m so sorry that there is only my writing to help you through.
i think you need to get back to a doc, if the one you have isnt listening, you need find one that will. i know the feeling well, and what its like being alone with them. i would hope you would exhaust all alternatives before considering this option. while i realize how intense it is, from experience, i dont want to act on it, because of my pets. you have a great deal of life ahead, you need to get to a foreward thinking doctor that will combine meds, individual and maybe group therapy with pple your same age and kinda in the same boat. its difficult to do this alone. but i do think you still have options to try before you should ever consider suicide. if you feel your parents are not listening a good doc can chat with them and make them understand the seriousness of this. pple can be so callous, my mom was like that with me, and so i understand it does make you feel just as you say, must i prove how serious i am, how bad i feel. that alone can be the thing that pushes pple over the edge as its such a huge rejection when feeling so desperate. but you do know pple here understand. and id like you to promise to try to get to your doctor. and if you feel this one is no help, tell your mom that you need a new doc. but say it in a way, like this. i really want to sort out my problems and feel better, but i think a new doctor would be a big help. i know its hard, but you cant give up now. you have alot to give to this world, things you want to accomplish. please keep fighting these feelings and thoughts. take care, todd