Lake Tahoe Revisited

After my 20-day stint of work, I am finally off for the day!!!!!YAAAAAAY!!!!!!! I slept in, and have no real plans other than to go to the pool, as it is supposed to get up to 105 today, and then on to 110 for the next 2 days......sigh...... I do great when it is in the 90's...no problem....but I don't know if I will ever get used to the 105 and up weather!!!   I'm going to go visit my Mom in July, and it is very humid where she is, the heat here is very dry, so more tolerable.  The end of July, I go to Lake Tahoe for seminars, so that will be a welcome relief from the heat.  Can't wait!!! I went to Lake Tahoe last year as well, and worried for months before about the temptation to gamble there.  I feel very differently about it this year.  I have a slight concern about the stress of walking through the casino to reach meeting rooms, restaurants, etc. ....but as my friend Eastwester told me once....gambling is all around me....lottery tickets in every corner store...I could gamble now if I wanted to.  In fact, there are 5 or 6 casinos located from 15 to 50 mins away from where I live! The thing is, I don't want to gamble.  It wouldn't matter if I worked in a casino, I still don't want to gamble. I am human, and having it in my face is definitely more stressful than being safe in my little home....but at this stage of my recovery, if Steve Wynn himself asked me to come to his casino and gamble, I would say NO.... LOL So, I might say a little prayer as I stride past the machines....but I know I will not let them grab me.  That is how I picture it in my mind.....but that is still in the future....and that is still just a fantasy.  What I have that is REAL is what I do right now. Just for today, I will not gamble....and that is all I need.....along with the support of my recovery family here. Thanks for being here for me...you beautiful people have made all the difference to me and continue to make my recovery possible... Love and Hugs, Dianne