labour day

it has been awhile since I've written a journal. This last week or so I have been a little tired and my breathing has changed. I was hoping it was just weather related but it has cooled off and the humidity has gone and I feel like I have congestion and a really good deep cough would clear it away....but it never goes away. I ordered a pulse-ox meter so that I can start to monitor my O2 levels myself to see where I stand. I haven't heard anything from either doc about the new med that they wanted to try. I feel like I am in limbo......
I did get the railings and pickets painted on the front deck and I made some muffins today. I found a suitcase for my trip out west and a nice carryon tote too. I am all set to go except forthe packing...lol I am a bit apprehensive because I am going to have to let my son know all the details about my illness and how serious it is. we haven't kept it from him, I just don't want them to worry. My daughter knows more because she is around more. Since he is so far away and can't do anything I haven't shared all the gory details with him yet, I know it will be better in person.
I guess I am a bit down since the last pft and the decline in function....maybe I have been in denial of how serious this is.....I mean I 'know' how bad it is but have I let myself really accept it yet. Not that I am giving in to it but I have noticed I have been less than enthusiastic lately and this is my favourite time of year and I want to enjoy it.
I am still enjoying the reaction my hair cut is getting....LOL We went to walmart today to get a few things for the muffins and my friend (she is always talking about how bad things are for her) she comes up to me and looks at me like I am dying and she hugs me and wants to know how I am and I just found it comical, now because I look like I am sick she is all concerned.......whatever, I shouldn't be bitter, but did she ever listen to anything I said!
My yoga schedule changed so I have to figure out what time works best now, ans I never heard anything back from "the wellness clinic" (misnomer) so I am going to call the chinese medicine place and find out about the acupuncture and hopefully get in this week.
I am still oving the ipad and being able to do everything from such a small thing, it will be great on my trip.....I have to get online and check out when "Wicked" woll be in toronto again (should be soon) My daughter and I are going to see it. So when I get back from out west maybe I can head to Toronto ans spend a few days with her and get to know her bf a little more......as long as my health stays stable.
I am a bit concerned about flying and not catching anything, i am bringing some wipes but i don't know if I should wear a mask or not. I have been really making sure I get all my vitamins and supplements in. I should send my homeopath an email and ask her what she would recommend.
I have been doing some research into 'healing a leaky gut' because she thinks that I might have it and the diet she gave me is REALLY restrictive.
Well i am off to scrub with a loufah and soak in epsom salts and then watch the Closer......