kinda nervous......

soooo in previous journal enteries i talked about my uncle and how uncomfortable he makes me.....well tonight my mom's side of the family is going over to their house.....they went on  safari a few months ago and they wanna show everyone their pictures....it'll be really cool....my mom works for a few schools as a nurse and she has spring break starting monday....and my dad lives in wisconsin....so the three of us are spending the night at their house-my aunt and uncle's house-tonight and then my aunt will drive me home tomorrow....i'm kinda nervous.....i worry that my uncle might make me feel so uncomfortable that i may be lay awake all night.....i had a dream last night and the night before that he made me uncomfrotable and i froze....i get so angry at myself when i freeze.....i feel like i should be able to do SOMETHING to stop it.....i could always take medicine if i feel super anxious....which i might do......i dunno, just had to spill my guts.....