Kind of a challenging day
08/14/11
Today was kind of rough at work. It was very busy and I was getting ordered around by like three different people. I also got asked to do somethings that I don't really know or remember how to do. I felt kind of frustrated because the reason that that is is because they only let me work two days a week for four hours each time. All they ever have me do is fold clothes and put them back. How am I going to remember stuff?
I went to church this morining and it was nice. I know that God made me for a reason and I know that is also why he didn't let me die. I'm trying to find a way to justify him loving me so much, but I'm not comfortable with that. Love is still a very shakey concept with me. My mind works in a special way so I have a hard time understanding certain things, but I get other stuff really quickly. God has made me this way for a reason and I aim to make the best of it.
I got a lot of coding done today. I finally finished the spell set for the magic game I am working on. I hope to have all five done by the end of the month. I know I can do it because I am very good at code. I'm also thinking about taking a second job again. I'm not sure if I should do it though because I'm afraid my project will suffer if I do. I hope you guys can give me some advice in this matter.
The second job is five days a week. Early morning hours only. Pays more than my current job. If I had both I may be able to move out on my own. If I had a GF I really could do it because we would only need a one bed appartment and the extra income would be more than enough. Maybe I should hit up Craigs list. Hahaha!
Today was kind of rough at work. It was very busy and I was getting ordered around by like three different people. I also got asked to do somethings that I don't really know or remember how to do. I felt kind of frustrated because the reason that that is is because they only let me work two days a week for four hours each time. All they ever have me do is fold clothes and put them back. How am I going to remember stuff?
I went to church this morining and it was nice. I know that God made me for a reason and I know that is also why he didn't let me die. I'm trying to find a way to justify him loving me so much, but I'm not comfortable with that. Love is still a very shakey concept with me. My mind works in a special way so I have a hard time understanding certain things, but I get other stuff really quickly. God has made me this way for a reason and I aim to make the best of it.
I got a lot of coding done today. I finally finished the spell set for the magic game I am working on. I hope to have all five done by the end of the month. I know I can do it because I am very good at code. I'm also thinking about taking a second job again. I'm not sure if I should do it though because I'm afraid my project will suffer if I do. I hope you guys can give me some advice in this matter.
The second job is five days a week. Early morning hours only. Pays more than my current job. If I had both I may be able to move out on my own. If I had a GF I really could do it because we would only need a one bed appartment and the extra income would be more than enough. Maybe I should hit up Craigs list. Hahaha!
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Hahahahahahahahaha extra income, huh? That just opens my eyes wider! Lol
And its a magic game? Coooooool thats just awesomeeee.... I have always wondered who come up with those amazing, super intelligent games, and knowing a great maker of those just makes me feel...excited! Please if I can help in any way, please inform me... Publicity maybe? I donno... But ur doing an awesome job! Keep going!
And about ur job, what about takin that job, and seeing how it works? If u felt so much stressed u can always quit the one that pays u less! 4 hours none stop is exhausting...and since its not in ur field, its okay forgetting or not knowing how some things are done!! Ur just fine, cheer up :)
And about religion, I understand loving God as living with an intention that whatever goodness I do if for the sake of God and humanity... Like I sleep to be strong enough to work for him, I eat for the same reason, I raise money to contribute to building this world... like, to see God in everything I do, cause I dont own any of what I was given... And to be thankful all the way through... Hope that gives u some sort of hint or something...
Good luck good luck good luck...and u would actually need more than a single bed to please a woman buddy ;) hahahahahahahahaha