Kids are gone home

Scott, Lisa and Maddox went back to Boise now.  Bill came to fix water pipe but said it was not broken, yeah.  Maddox is so cute I had him with Hayely all weekend long, he was a character.  You were so good with the grandkids, its so sad he will never know you.  We had so much fun.  As I was picking up stuff he left laying around, at 21 months stuff all over I picked up your hair brush.  I hugged it and cried because you were not supposed to die.  You just not supposed to die.  I wish so bad you were here for Maddox, and now they are going to have another baby sometime around November/December.  She/he will never know you, you were the calm, easy to talk you, father to Tyler & Hayley Grandpa figure so why did you have to go?  Its just not fair. 
Please come to me, and show me where to go from here please Roger.  This is not where I am supposed to be now.