keeping busy

busy weekend coming up.. have a communion party on saturday and then Sunday is the shower I am planning for my daughter.  My sister in law is having it at her house but I am taking care of the food favors etc etc... so lots to do...  The day after the shower is the first meeting of my support group.  I'm afraid to go and I'm not sure why.  I've been looking for months for the right one and this one seems perfect, plus it's new so it's not like I am walking into a group where everyone knows each other...   I hate doing that introduce and tell something about yourself thing... maybe that's why i don't know... or maybe it's the next step in acceptance and i don't want to walk up that yet not sure i'm really confused about how i feel about this.   I am going to focus on the baby shower...  and the birth will be May 28th and that is really keeping me going right now...