Keep going back

Hello to everyone. I always tought i would never get caught up in the gambling scene but it happend to me 5 yrs ago when they opened up resort. I have so bad that i walk to work which is nine miles from my home. I even put my name on the self exclusion list but i still go back. As of now i am probably going to lose my job of 22 years for the gov. Some times i feel like ending it.  Its like i am possessed when i get paid. I have to go no matter what then I am broke. Well this time I am going to look into inpatient for gambling. Thanks for reading. Have a great day